Stay in School, Cuz School is Cool!
I know I don't ever post in here, but I just feel like venting a little. I'm sorry when I finally post it's going to be really whiny. Well, I'm not really that sorry because I'm going to do it anyway.
I went to my piano lesson tonight, and it made me really upset. Every week I do the same things wrong, and I think that I have them fixed, yet my teacher continues to point them out to me. That just made me really upset, I'm not motivated anymore to practice, and I feel bad about it. I don't know why I feel that way, hopefully it's just a phase.
On the upside, my classes are pretty cool. Hard, but interesting. Couch is awesome, and I feel like his class is going to be AP-level discussions without AP-level work. I really hope this is true. AP English is going to be a ton of reading and I don't know if I'll keep up because I read slow. And Mr. Duvall basically told us that AP Physics is THE hardest of all the AP tests, and we're going to get basically every problem wrong throughout the entire span of the semester. I opened up my AP Physics book for the first time tonight, and I read over the little section he wanted us to learn. I'm already completely confused.....great.....
And finally, I made a decision recently that I thought would improve my life, yet right now it just makes me sad. My brain keeps telling me all the reasons why this is the best thing, but my heart wants to tell me otherwise. I don't think I can trust my emotions, but the emotions still seem to have the most influence over me. I worry that I only do what other people think is best for me, and I have voices everywhere trying to persuade me in every direction. But I have no idea what I want, I'm just a big lump of confusion.
You know, my life is actually really good. Think of all of the people in Indonesia and all over eastern Asia. Yet my lame-o teenage emotions keep saying my life sucks. It really doesnt suck.
I went to my piano lesson tonight, and it made me really upset. Every week I do the same things wrong, and I think that I have them fixed, yet my teacher continues to point them out to me. That just made me really upset, I'm not motivated anymore to practice, and I feel bad about it. I don't know why I feel that way, hopefully it's just a phase.
On the upside, my classes are pretty cool. Hard, but interesting. Couch is awesome, and I feel like his class is going to be AP-level discussions without AP-level work. I really hope this is true. AP English is going to be a ton of reading and I don't know if I'll keep up because I read slow. And Mr. Duvall basically told us that AP Physics is THE hardest of all the AP tests, and we're going to get basically every problem wrong throughout the entire span of the semester. I opened up my AP Physics book for the first time tonight, and I read over the little section he wanted us to learn. I'm already completely confused.....great.....
And finally, I made a decision recently that I thought would improve my life, yet right now it just makes me sad. My brain keeps telling me all the reasons why this is the best thing, but my heart wants to tell me otherwise. I don't think I can trust my emotions, but the emotions still seem to have the most influence over me. I worry that I only do what other people think is best for me, and I have voices everywhere trying to persuade me in every direction. But I have no idea what I want, I'm just a big lump of confusion.
You know, my life is actually really good. Think of all of the people in Indonesia and all over eastern Asia. Yet my lame-o teenage emotions keep saying my life sucks. It really doesnt suck.