eh
wat sucks?
i babysat today not so bad
but i was tired afterwards
missed CSI
and ER
and fell asleep
have to do all my hw now
its slippery outside and my moms driving and i hope shes ok
wat really sucks?
i just realized my cousin is actually getting a divorce...shes going to india and is getting remarried and i still havent been able to give her a hug b/c shes been in england.
and i still havent been able to smack the guy...but dont worry i will, sometime in my life im gonna find him on the corner of main street drunk and unwanted by any girls and im gonna laugh in his fudgin face b/c he could have had the most gorgeous woman and most caring woman that i love with all my heart but instead he wanted to fudge around with nasty hoes that walk around thinkin they're better than every1 else b/c they just had some random guys dick in their mouth
well u know wat? they arent.
wats ironic?
i was getting upset with my body for a month b/c my period was late
but now that its here i wish it wasnt.
wats stupid?
my grades b/c u know i could have done so much better but instead i feel like socializing is important when u know wat...it just gives me more stress
wat i did?
ok so i like will but i thought i didnt really care if he h/u with other ppl or went out with them b/c at least i became really good friends with him too. and i dont like him that much its just that we're becoming friends so i like talking to him just bout random stuff. and so when he told me he wanted to ask tess out/just h/u with her i didnt really mind. and even though she said she wouldnt want to do anything with him if i liked him i told her that i wouldnt mind and she could do w/e but then today he wanted me to skip bio and go talk with tess at lunch but i didnt feel like it but i went down to visit for a sec and when i saw them it hit me. every1 has these little relationships brewing up and i see it everywhere and here are two of my friends planning on h/u on friday or maybe going out. and im alone b/c thats exactly wat i want. i want to find some who likes me and i like back. i dont regret my casual hook ups but now i want more. i want someone i can talk to and have them just listen and vice versa. i want some1 to want to hold me and to want to see me. and its like its happening to everyone else near valentines day but not to me. so i officially hate valentines day. mostly b/c it just makes me upset. and i figured im not gonna tell tess to not do stuff with will b/c thats just pointless b/c im not gonna go out with him or h/u with him. so why should i prevent them from doing something just b/c of my wants. this world doesnt revolve around me and i have to stop thinking that. plus they're both my friends so i care bout them and even though im gonna have to just get used to it it'll be fine.
wats eh?
today in health we were talking bout wat made us angriest and nelly said homophobes(sp) am i one? i dont think so its just that i cringe when i see her and emma b/c not used to emma yet. but im trying really hard. its just difficult. o ya she stenched of smoke and annie told me she started smoking a lot. ok so i just never realized that one of my best friends is going through a lot more shit than ever and i havent been there to help her steer her the right way. and when i mean the right way im not talking bout her being bi b/c thats her choice but i dont want her doing any drugs. they mess ppl up
wat made me sad?
my mom told me i hurt appu's feelings everytime i have pms and she said "u do it everytime...u lash out at him...before you have you're period, during ur period, and even after" and i felt sooo bad and so im gonna try to be really nice to him. she told me i have to "control my feelings and my urges" ugheh but i said congrats to him b/c he made safety patrol at school. eh u know i realized just now that my cousins will prolly hate me when they're older..just for all the times ive pmsed at them and been extremely mean. ugh can i hate myself anymore? prolly
im gonna go listen to igors advice now and sit and do my work b/c i dont have the rest of the semester to do better "start good..end good" as he says so im gonna go do that and maybe just make justin and joshua take a nap with me tomorrow...after i run on that treadmill...run some stress off my chest.
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
Love is the rhythm
You are the music
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
You get what you're given
It's all how you use it
i babysat today not so bad
but i was tired afterwards
missed CSI
and ER
and fell asleep
have to do all my hw now
its slippery outside and my moms driving and i hope shes ok
wat really sucks?
i just realized my cousin is actually getting a divorce...shes going to india and is getting remarried and i still havent been able to give her a hug b/c shes been in england.
and i still havent been able to smack the guy...but dont worry i will, sometime in my life im gonna find him on the corner of main street drunk and unwanted by any girls and im gonna laugh in his fudgin face b/c he could have had the most gorgeous woman and most caring woman that i love with all my heart but instead he wanted to fudge around with nasty hoes that walk around thinkin they're better than every1 else b/c they just had some random guys dick in their mouth
well u know wat? they arent.
wats ironic?
i was getting upset with my body for a month b/c my period was late
but now that its here i wish it wasnt.
wats stupid?
my grades b/c u know i could have done so much better but instead i feel like socializing is important when u know wat...it just gives me more stress
wat i did?
ok so i like will but i thought i didnt really care if he h/u with other ppl or went out with them b/c at least i became really good friends with him too. and i dont like him that much its just that we're becoming friends so i like talking to him just bout random stuff. and so when he told me he wanted to ask tess out/just h/u with her i didnt really mind. and even though she said she wouldnt want to do anything with him if i liked him i told her that i wouldnt mind and she could do w/e but then today he wanted me to skip bio and go talk with tess at lunch but i didnt feel like it but i went down to visit for a sec and when i saw them it hit me. every1 has these little relationships brewing up and i see it everywhere and here are two of my friends planning on h/u on friday or maybe going out. and im alone b/c thats exactly wat i want. i want to find some who likes me and i like back. i dont regret my casual hook ups but now i want more. i want someone i can talk to and have them just listen and vice versa. i want some1 to want to hold me and to want to see me. and its like its happening to everyone else near valentines day but not to me. so i officially hate valentines day. mostly b/c it just makes me upset. and i figured im not gonna tell tess to not do stuff with will b/c thats just pointless b/c im not gonna go out with him or h/u with him. so why should i prevent them from doing something just b/c of my wants. this world doesnt revolve around me and i have to stop thinking that. plus they're both my friends so i care bout them and even though im gonna have to just get used to it it'll be fine.
wats eh?
today in health we were talking bout wat made us angriest and nelly said homophobes(sp) am i one? i dont think so its just that i cringe when i see her and emma b/c not used to emma yet. but im trying really hard. its just difficult. o ya she stenched of smoke and annie told me she started smoking a lot. ok so i just never realized that one of my best friends is going through a lot more shit than ever and i havent been there to help her steer her the right way. and when i mean the right way im not talking bout her being bi b/c thats her choice but i dont want her doing any drugs. they mess ppl up
wat made me sad?
my mom told me i hurt appu's feelings everytime i have pms and she said "u do it everytime...u lash out at him...before you have you're period, during ur period, and even after" and i felt sooo bad and so im gonna try to be really nice to him. she told me i have to "control my feelings and my urges" ugheh but i said congrats to him b/c he made safety patrol at school. eh u know i realized just now that my cousins will prolly hate me when they're older..just for all the times ive pmsed at them and been extremely mean. ugh can i hate myself anymore? prolly
im gonna go listen to igors advice now and sit and do my work b/c i dont have the rest of the semester to do better "start good..end good" as he says so im gonna go do that and maybe just make justin and joshua take a nap with me tomorrow...after i run on that treadmill...run some stress off my chest.
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
Love is the rhythm
You are the music
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
You get what you're given
It's all how you use it