Crazy mixed up world
this weekend was such a blur. it went so fast.
i was reading peoples journal and i feel so sad for them. then i also started reading my old journal that was secretive and i was like thank god im different from then for the most part ..i dunno i still feel weird about certain things that happened in my past but i guess you just gotta keep moving. i think i looked at this because ihad a weird dream last night and then i heard some stuff at school about specific people in my past and i felt bad for them because i wouldnt want that to happen to anyone because thats horrible. im listening to this song # 11 on Final Straw and it completly suits my mood. i dont want it to end.
i was talking with this girl melissa today in my math class and we completly understood what both were going through ... like with hating the school and how its like killing us from the inside out.. im almost jealous of mike because he gets to do whatever he wants next year.* like with going to school and stuff* hes starting his own label which hopefully will get off the ground.. im trying to be supportive but im just worried about whats going to happen with all this stuff.. i believe he as the musical love to do it im just worried about the legal issues and whatnot. i cant wait for xmas.. i really just wanna give my presents.. and of course somewhere wants me to get them as well but i think thats a human weakness that everyone has.
i also need help on deciding what i should do about one of my old friends. they were there for me when i didnt have any friends and it was alright and stuff but this year things are different.. its just not the same something is different.. im noticing all these things like how self-centered they really are and how hate-filled they come off to be and how they actually try to be hateful and how they just want to do stupid things and i just hate doing that. you know like putting up with stuff just to do it. and of course i do that. i just dont know what else to do . i dunno can i just be like. you're not my friend... or can i just suck it up and fucking deal with it i dont even know...
well im gonna listen to something corporate and fall asleep i think i need that. haha.
i was reading peoples journal and i feel so sad for them. then i also started reading my old journal that was secretive and i was like thank god im different from then for the most part ..i dunno i still feel weird about certain things that happened in my past but i guess you just gotta keep moving. i think i looked at this because ihad a weird dream last night and then i heard some stuff at school about specific people in my past and i felt bad for them because i wouldnt want that to happen to anyone because thats horrible. im listening to this song # 11 on Final Straw and it completly suits my mood. i dont want it to end.
i was talking with this girl melissa today in my math class and we completly understood what both were going through ... like with hating the school and how its like killing us from the inside out.. im almost jealous of mike because he gets to do whatever he wants next year.* like with going to school and stuff* hes starting his own label which hopefully will get off the ground.. im trying to be supportive but im just worried about whats going to happen with all this stuff.. i believe he as the musical love to do it im just worried about the legal issues and whatnot. i cant wait for xmas.. i really just wanna give my presents.. and of course somewhere wants me to get them as well but i think thats a human weakness that everyone has.
i also need help on deciding what i should do about one of my old friends. they were there for me when i didnt have any friends and it was alright and stuff but this year things are different.. its just not the same something is different.. im noticing all these things like how self-centered they really are and how hate-filled they come off to be and how they actually try to be hateful and how they just want to do stupid things and i just hate doing that. you know like putting up with stuff just to do it. and of course i do that. i just dont know what else to do . i dunno can i just be like. you're not my friend... or can i just suck it up and fucking deal with it i dont even know...
well im gonna listen to something corporate and fall asleep i think i need that. haha.