Aug 01, 2009 00:28
I don't care what your problems are.
I have too much on my plate to deal with. I am fucking fucking SICK of having to explain myself everytime something doesn't go your way. You aren't fucking open-minded enough to live in this 3rd world country. Go get lagged behind and see everyone change while you sit in your cave and COMMENT on every fucking thing that displeases you.
I FUCKING HAD IT. The kind of stress and pressure you're putting on me isn't going to help you. And you only fucking think about yourself in your OWN shoes. It's all about what you HAVE to do, what you HAVE to be, what kind of responsibilities you have to uphold to. Fuck that and be more flexible in your style. Life is about change and if you can't accept a single thing I'm sorry you aren't going to enjoy the rest of your life.
You ALWAYS have to do this. Make me stand on the fence and think about all the positive and negative points about what I'm doing. What you're seeing is just a - I have to fucking say this, facade. You think you know me well, fucking think again. There are reasons to certain things I do with certain actions of mine. And have they ever occured to you that I might not be what you think I am?
Be it I'm 20, 30 or even 40. What you said is true, but you just can't accept the fact that what you're doing is simply stubborn and inflexible. If I may say this, you gotta learn from others. You just don't want to accept the fact that there are people out there doing a better job than you are.
I am fucking tired of this sick routine. And nobody knows how different I am inside and out. I see myself change and I'm as freaked out as you would be if you knew. But the thing is nobody knows.
I'm fucking sick, fucking sick of all this. And I'm fucking scared I might lose it someday.
Fuck it seriously.