I will feel infinite...
So, I'm sitting at home by myself, feeling all nostalgic. Again. My family just came for the weekend and graduation. And I mean, all my family. Extendeds and everyone. And so now they are all gone, and Jason is at work and I'm all alone and I'm really starting to realize that I have graduated college, and I'm done, and the rest of my life starts now. It is a very strange feeling. I guess it hasn't totally sunk in yet, but I didn't feel any of the feelings you're supposed to feel. I wasn't elated, or overjoyed, or even relieved really. Just kind of sad, really. I thought of all the things I wish I had done, or hadn't done and all the good times, and I don't know that I am completely ready to leave all this behind. But I know I don't have a choice.
I've had this account since just before I started college, and even though I didn't keep up with it much the past year or two, I am glad I have a record of this time. But now that I'm leaving college and moving on, this will be the last entry I make here before I move to Portland and start the next chapter. If any of you still read this, know I love you, I will miss you, and you are in my thoughts. In the words of Stephen Chbosky
"So, if this does end up being my last letter, please believe that things are good with me, and even when they're not, they will be soon enough. And I will believe the same about you."
I've had this account since just before I started college, and even though I didn't keep up with it much the past year or two, I am glad I have a record of this time. But now that I'm leaving college and moving on, this will be the last entry I make here before I move to Portland and start the next chapter. If any of you still read this, know I love you, I will miss you, and you are in my thoughts. In the words of Stephen Chbosky
"So, if this does end up being my last letter, please believe that things are good with me, and even when they're not, they will be soon enough. And I will believe the same about you."