Control
I got such a crappy night of sleep. I had some kind of crazy nightmare that woke me up around 4am. This one included explosions and an airplane crashing into the roof of the building I was in. *sigh* I hate nightmares - what's wrong with me that I have such vivid and violent ones? And to think, I was in a pretty good mood when I climbed into bed last night. Hmm...
In reading a little (and obvs taking it all with a grain of salt), everything about plane crash dreams seem to have to do with control issues and/or changes on the horizon. Given that I dreamed that this plane came down on top of the building where I work, maybe I have some deep-seeded issues with my job? Which I guess is plausible. I thought it was going to be a great workout of my analytic brain and my manager seems kinda happy with the work I'm putting out. But yesterday, I couldn't stop thinking about how what I was having to focus on the day was intern work (IMHO) and wondering when I'm going to be able to dig into something a little more meaty. I was glad that he said something in our one-on-one about being concerned about the boredom factor because I need to recognize when that's the case. Like yesterday - I ran away from my desk 3 times yesterday because I was tired of staring at the screen, tired of counting, tired of formatting. Fortunately I had a few good distractions, but still. History has taught me that when I get bored, I get sloppy. When I get sloppy, I get in trouble. Hmm...definitely an issue I need to process a little further. I want something more...but what does that really mean to me?
Either way, I hope today is as overall good of a day as yesterday was. It's tomorrow that I'm really anxious/nervous about.
-tica
In reading a little (and obvs taking it all with a grain of salt), everything about plane crash dreams seem to have to do with control issues and/or changes on the horizon. Given that I dreamed that this plane came down on top of the building where I work, maybe I have some deep-seeded issues with my job? Which I guess is plausible. I thought it was going to be a great workout of my analytic brain and my manager seems kinda happy with the work I'm putting out. But yesterday, I couldn't stop thinking about how what I was having to focus on the day was intern work (IMHO) and wondering when I'm going to be able to dig into something a little more meaty. I was glad that he said something in our one-on-one about being concerned about the boredom factor because I need to recognize when that's the case. Like yesterday - I ran away from my desk 3 times yesterday because I was tired of staring at the screen, tired of counting, tired of formatting. Fortunately I had a few good distractions, but still. History has taught me that when I get bored, I get sloppy. When I get sloppy, I get in trouble. Hmm...definitely an issue I need to process a little further. I want something more...but what does that really mean to me?
Either way, I hope today is as overall good of a day as yesterday was. It's tomorrow that I'm really anxious/nervous about.
-tica