ReDiscovery
Wow...where to start? First of all, shouts out to my girl gnomeprincess; I hope you're well, sweetie!
Not that anyone noticed (or that I expected you to), but I decided to let the Daze go dark for a few days. Remember a few weeks ago when I said I felt the tides turning in my life? I couldn't have been more spot on because, lawdhammercy, things are a-changing! What's ironic is that, despite the uncertainties, I feel more confident and more in control and more ready to tackle the world than I have in a long time. It's crazy what taking some time to just THINK can do for a girl. Especially after all the craziness of last week. Friday night was like ThinkFest 2008. This is probably going to sound weird, but it was just me and my emotions and God in a dark room. I got such clarity on so many things that night though; it was amazing! I feel like there's a lot of positivity radiating from my heart right now, so I'm trying to spread it, share it, and live it. Saturday morning, I got up bright and early and did something I haven't in a while: a volunteer project.
It was a pretty good time with all these fellow OrangeFolk I'd never seen before. I'd never painted anything before...but realized that I really enjoy having a paintbrush in hand. So...I signed up for a completely different volunteer project for the 24th to go paint a mural. I'm feeling particularly artsy right now. Like, I want to break out the camera and go take some classes this summer. We'll see how that pans out.
Saturday night continued the discovering of where I am right now. Background: Ray (formerly known as NNG) has this idolfriend named JW. Ray and JW had been talking up JW's Birthday Bbq for weeks and were very insistent with the evite, but I was a little hesitant to go since things got all weird between me and Ray. Especially in the last few weeks. Well, all the worlds collided on Saturday night because I decided, after much careful deliberation, to go to JW's party. Solo. I'm glad I did though because, even though I didn't really know anyone there, i had a great time! JW totally redeemed himself from his foolish behavior at Kitty's bbq a few weeks ago and he's totally back in my good graces and then some. He welcomed me with open arms (almost literally) as soon as I walked in the door at his place and was constantly checking me to make sure I was having a good time. He even played some DC go-go for me, which secured his nook in Tica's sweet spot. The place was jammed pack full of people I'd never met before...including Ray's NewChick. Boy, was that a weird dynamic...especially about mid-party when the scene on the couch was as follows:
x<-Mex<-Him(andwaaaaaaaaayoverhereontheotherside)x<-Her
When I asked him about her, the way he was talking about her...something was not quite right. I could tell she wasn't thrilled with me and him having conversation at all. And the look on his face later when she and I were sitting alone in the room talking was priceless. *sigh* Ray, oh dear, sweet, dumbass Ray. There's nothing you can do now, aside from growing the eff up, that's going to ruffle my feathers, hun. I'm as mellow as a cello, ya heard? The irony of this situation with him is that everyone on the softball team thinks we are a couple and are dating each other. EVERYONE. As in, when everything went down on Wednesday with the job situation and we all went drinking after the game, they were all picking their jaws off the floor when I told them I hadn't talked to Ray at all that day (and hadn't necessarily planned on it). *shrugs* I'm not in any huge hurry to correct them. I'm like Beyonce - my personal life gets a big fat "no comment" when questioned by the Workeratzi. You know, despite it all, I owe Ray my gratitude. I'm learning all kinds of life lessons from dealing with him.
Last notable discovery du jour: the song Green Eyes by Erykah Badu. I'd totally forgotten about that song. I love it!! I really wish I was going to be able to see her in concert here next week. Maybe I'll be able to luck out and find some tix on Craigslist. I'm so sad that I lost the E.Badu mp3's I had. I wish there was some way for me to recover them, but I'm afraid they're gone forever. :-(
Anyway, I'd better hit the hay. These next 2 days are going to be a doozy!
Being the change she wants to see in the world,
Ticas
Not that anyone noticed (or that I expected you to), but I decided to let the Daze go dark for a few days. Remember a few weeks ago when I said I felt the tides turning in my life? I couldn't have been more spot on because, lawdhammercy, things are a-changing! What's ironic is that, despite the uncertainties, I feel more confident and more in control and more ready to tackle the world than I have in a long time. It's crazy what taking some time to just THINK can do for a girl. Especially after all the craziness of last week. Friday night was like ThinkFest 2008. This is probably going to sound weird, but it was just me and my emotions and God in a dark room. I got such clarity on so many things that night though; it was amazing! I feel like there's a lot of positivity radiating from my heart right now, so I'm trying to spread it, share it, and live it. Saturday morning, I got up bright and early and did something I haven't in a while: a volunteer project.
It was a pretty good time with all these fellow OrangeFolk I'd never seen before. I'd never painted anything before...but realized that I really enjoy having a paintbrush in hand. So...I signed up for a completely different volunteer project for the 24th to go paint a mural. I'm feeling particularly artsy right now. Like, I want to break out the camera and go take some classes this summer. We'll see how that pans out.
Saturday night continued the discovering of where I am right now. Background: Ray (formerly known as NNG) has this idolfriend named JW. Ray and JW had been talking up JW's Birthday Bbq for weeks and were very insistent with the evite, but I was a little hesitant to go since things got all weird between me and Ray. Especially in the last few weeks. Well, all the worlds collided on Saturday night because I decided, after much careful deliberation, to go to JW's party. Solo. I'm glad I did though because, even though I didn't really know anyone there, i had a great time! JW totally redeemed himself from his foolish behavior at Kitty's bbq a few weeks ago and he's totally back in my good graces and then some. He welcomed me with open arms (almost literally) as soon as I walked in the door at his place and was constantly checking me to make sure I was having a good time. He even played some DC go-go for me, which secured his nook in Tica's sweet spot. The place was jammed pack full of people I'd never met before...including Ray's NewChick. Boy, was that a weird dynamic...especially about mid-party when the scene on the couch was as follows:
x<-Mex<-Him(andwaaaaaaaaayoverhereontheotherside)x<-Her
When I asked him about her, the way he was talking about her...something was not quite right. I could tell she wasn't thrilled with me and him having conversation at all. And the look on his face later when she and I were sitting alone in the room talking was priceless. *sigh* Ray, oh dear, sweet, dumbass Ray. There's nothing you can do now, aside from growing the eff up, that's going to ruffle my feathers, hun. I'm as mellow as a cello, ya heard? The irony of this situation with him is that everyone on the softball team thinks we are a couple and are dating each other. EVERYONE. As in, when everything went down on Wednesday with the job situation and we all went drinking after the game, they were all picking their jaws off the floor when I told them I hadn't talked to Ray at all that day (and hadn't necessarily planned on it). *shrugs* I'm not in any huge hurry to correct them. I'm like Beyonce - my personal life gets a big fat "no comment" when questioned by the Workeratzi. You know, despite it all, I owe Ray my gratitude. I'm learning all kinds of life lessons from dealing with him.
Last notable discovery du jour: the song Green Eyes by Erykah Badu. I'd totally forgotten about that song. I love it!! I really wish I was going to be able to see her in concert here next week. Maybe I'll be able to luck out and find some tix on Craigslist. I'm so sad that I lost the E.Badu mp3's I had. I wish there was some way for me to recover them, but I'm afraid they're gone forever. :-(
Anyway, I'd better hit the hay. These next 2 days are going to be a doozy!
Being the change she wants to see in the world,
Ticas