Just a little update
I just got a short while ago a little nudge stating that I haven't updated this in a while... and well that is very true, and also sadly, very common. I don't really share much about myself even to myself, never mind to others.
Well, not exactly true, I do think about myself often and sometimes hold whole convos with myself, in my search to discover my true and underlying self, but that doesn't really seem to come out in the world such that others might see and know that. But, a nudge from a good friend does mean something to me, so here it goes.
Work is very crazy and maddening right now. Again, there was an opportunity for advancement that the company manager, and supposed friend, passed right over me for... Again. The sergeant position at work was being vacated as the woman holding it was moving to Colorado. The shift is from 0400 til 1200. So, I didn't apply to it since A) With a schedule like that I'd never see Lynn again and B) I've done that shift and it killed me. In my personal time scheme, 0400 is the time to be going to bed, not waking up, if I had my druthers and could sleep whenever I wanted and not when the exigencies of working for a living impose on life. The pay increase and the so-called other perks also don't offset the BS that would have to be dealt with.
Then I find out, that this time there weren't going to be only one sergeant, but four. And two of the people who applied got two of the positions while two others who did not even interview got the other two. The shifts for these other three sergeants are 0800-1600, 1600 - 2400 and 0000-0800. All of which I could and would do gladly, and one of which is my specific shift. And, by all accounts, I am a stronger candidate (by being someone who actually does his job and has been there for longer) than most of the candidates. So, to say not happy, is an understatement.
Oh, and the manager of the department of the airport under whom we work, has decided that the people on my shift don't need a break in the morning. We can just stay on our feet and deal with the public for four straight hours because we "don't do anything for three hours overnight". Patently BS!
Just because there is less traffic, doesn't mean we do nothing. We still have people coming and going all night and we do have to do something about it. It's not as if we can just leave and come back before the traffic does. The airport doesn't close or anything. And, we have more duties that have been piled on us so the supposed 'three hour break' is anything but.
About the only good thing going on right now, despite the stress and planning, is the upcoming wedding. Yes, my beloved is worth all the difficulty of the wedding, and more. And, I expect that September 18 will become my new favorite-est day of the year. And no, it's not because I expect to be able to sleep well for the first time in months, the day after ;)
Well, not exactly true, I do think about myself often and sometimes hold whole convos with myself, in my search to discover my true and underlying self, but that doesn't really seem to come out in the world such that others might see and know that. But, a nudge from a good friend does mean something to me, so here it goes.
Work is very crazy and maddening right now. Again, there was an opportunity for advancement that the company manager, and supposed friend, passed right over me for... Again. The sergeant position at work was being vacated as the woman holding it was moving to Colorado. The shift is from 0400 til 1200. So, I didn't apply to it since A) With a schedule like that I'd never see Lynn again and B) I've done that shift and it killed me. In my personal time scheme, 0400 is the time to be going to bed, not waking up, if I had my druthers and could sleep whenever I wanted and not when the exigencies of working for a living impose on life. The pay increase and the so-called other perks also don't offset the BS that would have to be dealt with.
Then I find out, that this time there weren't going to be only one sergeant, but four. And two of the people who applied got two of the positions while two others who did not even interview got the other two. The shifts for these other three sergeants are 0800-1600, 1600 - 2400 and 0000-0800. All of which I could and would do gladly, and one of which is my specific shift. And, by all accounts, I am a stronger candidate (by being someone who actually does his job and has been there for longer) than most of the candidates. So, to say not happy, is an understatement.
Oh, and the manager of the department of the airport under whom we work, has decided that the people on my shift don't need a break in the morning. We can just stay on our feet and deal with the public for four straight hours because we "don't do anything for three hours overnight". Patently BS!
Just because there is less traffic, doesn't mean we do nothing. We still have people coming and going all night and we do have to do something about it. It's not as if we can just leave and come back before the traffic does. The airport doesn't close or anything. And, we have more duties that have been piled on us so the supposed 'three hour break' is anything but.
About the only good thing going on right now, despite the stress and planning, is the upcoming wedding. Yes, my beloved is worth all the difficulty of the wedding, and more. And, I expect that September 18 will become my new favorite-est day of the year. And no, it's not because I expect to be able to sleep well for the first time in months, the day after ;)