I've spent the good past of the last month considering dropping out of my course, for the second time. I did half a year of an English degree, quit, and so far I've done a year and a half of a psychology degree. I feel so trapped, I don't really know why I'm doing this. I really can motivate myself to do any work, and like you said happened to you, I find that things snowball. I'll miss one class and then not want to go to the next one and have to explain why I was absent the week before, so I'll just miss weeks and weeks to save myself the hassle! I guess I don't have a clue what I would do if I would drop out, being trapped and unhappy here for a year and a half more is less scary than having to go out into the big wide world and get a proper job. For now I'm just safe here, going along half asleep all the time, until I figure out what to do.
I guess I just want you to know that you're not alone, you're not a fuck up, it's just that the typical route of higher education isn't suited to everyone. Maybe your parents just don't get that not everyone needs to get a degree and a high paying career to live a good life and be happy. It doesn't make you stupid by any means, it just means that your priorities are different. It sounds like your parents just have a totally different mindset to yours, which isn't anyone's fault, it's just how things are (for a lot of people)!
Nothing is pemanant and you can always go back to stuff. The possibilities are endless! Maybe in a few years you'll want to start a career, maybe you'll always be happy making enough to get by. The situation you're in now won't be the same as the situation you'll be in in a year, or a few years. It's a huge cliche but life really is too short to spend your time regretting things or feeling bad about the past. Life moves on. Everything you do is experience, whether it's work experience or just life experience. Every bit shapes you as a person, and your life in general. Do whatever the fuck YOU want and love it.
I've rambled. I should stop. Hope you're OK Iain :-)
I guess I just want you to know that you're not alone, you're not a fuck up, it's just that the typical route of higher education isn't suited to everyone. Maybe your parents just don't get that not everyone needs to get a degree and a high paying career to live a good life and be happy. It doesn't make you stupid by any means, it just means that your priorities are different. It sounds like your parents just have a totally different mindset to yours, which isn't anyone's fault, it's just how things are (for a lot of people)!
Nothing is pemanant and you can always go back to stuff. The possibilities are endless! Maybe in a few years you'll want to start a career, maybe you'll always be happy making enough to get by. The situation you're in now won't be the same as the situation you'll be in in a year, or a few years. It's a huge cliche but life really is too short to spend your time regretting things or feeling bad about the past. Life moves on. Everything you do is experience, whether it's work experience or just life experience. Every bit shapes you as a person, and your life in general. Do whatever the fuck YOU want and love it.
I've rambled. I should stop. Hope you're OK Iain :-)
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