Friendship
I feel like such a bad friend...
I'm not like a lot of people who can get along with anyone.
I know Jin said this, and I'm not saying this because he said it, but for me to have friends, our 'feelings' have to match.
And there aren't a lot of people who match with me.^^;
There are few people who 'match' with me, few that don't at all, and a lot of 'neutral'.
And in 8th grade most of the girls in my class were my friends. I think it was really suprising that there were so many people who I was able to get along with really good.
And lately, I've been feeling that I'm being such a bitch to my friends.
The thing is, I'm not good at acting out stuff. So if I don' like something or someone, I'm not good at hiding it.
If I'm feeling really down and depressed, I can hide that. But for some reason, I can't hide the likes and dislikes.
If I like something, I'll really get into it and talk a lot about it. But if I don't, I really don't talk about it that much.
And my friends are truely, really nice, and whenever I talk about KAT-TUN or Jin, they say they like it too, and they talk along with me.
But there are things that my friends like that I'm not that interested in, and I feel really bad because my friends like what I like but I don't of theirs.
And I can't talk along with them. But it's not like I don't like anything of theirs at all. There are things I like, and I can get into that. But there just aren't as many as I think I there should be.
I with I could change my personality...(>.<)