Night oddities

[thyis1]

I don't know what it is about the night. I look out and see the sea, black an oily, it makes me want to bolt, run away to some place else. I feel so lonely here. I miss my friends, but don't want to come back home. I guess it all comes down to choice, do i chose to be alone, or do i chose to have something in my life that will keep me going? life is all about choice i suppose. I'm to confident for my own good, waiting for the floor to drop out, living in scarcity, wanting the best for all those around me but never really asking much for me. I become disappointed at the little things people forget to do. I just want to know that everything is going to be okay, but i know that is not a guarantee. The only thing solid we can depend on as humans is that we will die, from that stand point there are only 2 things you can do, and to quote Red from The Shawshank Redemption "[You} can either get busy dying, or get busy living." Who knows if any of you will get what i am talking about, I am just putting it out there. Hope you can all make it to my 21st...it's gonna be a blast.

Till then,

-M