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ive neglected this journal. in fact, i only use it for the nin community at this point.
im scared of senior year. i dont want college to end, i dont want my friends to go scatter back home or follow their careers away from me. i love them all so much. i dont think college is prepping for anything at all. i am dissatisfied with my choice of major and even more, the people in it. my boyfriend is sometimes my best friend and other times the biggest, most clueless idiot ever. my mom is insane and getting crazier every year. my dad is mute. my dogs cant live at school with me and it bums me out. im afraid that if my opa doesnt go to the doctor for his lip i might lose my favorite relative ever to something very minor and stupid. i worry that ive become a horrible person and even worse, i am happy the way i am. essentially, i am happy being a horrible person.
i think i miss germany more now that i did all summer. i need to find a way back.
im scared of senior year. i dont want college to end, i dont want my friends to go scatter back home or follow their careers away from me. i love them all so much. i dont think college is prepping for anything at all. i am dissatisfied with my choice of major and even more, the people in it. my boyfriend is sometimes my best friend and other times the biggest, most clueless idiot ever. my mom is insane and getting crazier every year. my dad is mute. my dogs cant live at school with me and it bums me out. im afraid that if my opa doesnt go to the doctor for his lip i might lose my favorite relative ever to something very minor and stupid. i worry that ive become a horrible person and even worse, i am happy the way i am. essentially, i am happy being a horrible person.
i think i miss germany more now that i did all summer. i need to find a way back.