A fresh start
I remember when I couldnt wait to right in my LJ about the stuff on my mind. Now a days its been more of "huh Lj, say what?" So I apologize to all those on my friends list (and random passer-bys). I appreciate your interest in my life and I am highly interested in yours too. I kid you not ppl. I absolutely LOVE reading about other ppls lives...I think this is the best place to admit that without getting weird looks from anyone. It interests me to know how other ppl are dealing with their problems, and what they face and just the way they live. and sometimes, as freaky as it may seem, it inspires me to do different things in my own life. So i ve vowed to become a better Lj friend and actually leave comments because I always read and never comment.
ok enough of that. So basically I ve spent the past few months trying to relax. After I finished taking a class at BU, I went to Portland,OR for my cousins wedding. It was really cute and intimate with just close friends and family. I got to meet a lot of relatives I never knew, which is funny. When it comes to relatives, one thing that will always remain is the commenting(both positive and negative). Everyone kept gushing over how much I ve changed and how I ve lost so much weight and I ve become so feminine(lol) etc. This was a little shocking to me since I look at myself and see the same person from 7th grade but I guess I cant deny that I m not even the person I was 2 yrs ago. I ve since lost my tomboyish tendencies.lol. oh but the family also seemed to think i was abnormally quiet (i HATE when ppl say that!). I guess they just dont understand that I dont really know them that well anymore...I only see them once a year at most. I also went to Egypt to visit my mom. I really didnt like the tourist things that ppl would typical like (i.e. pyramids, etc) i mean they were fascinating but I guess I m just used to things like that. I have more fun doing things that locals do. I was glad to find out that I havent forgotten my arabic...i could read all the road signs so i knew where i was going AND most importantly,I could bargain!ha! I felt sorry for the poor americans next to me being taken for a ride when they payed nearly $15 for what should've only cost $3. even when they tried to bargain, it was just sad.
School is starting in a few weeks and I m excited/scared. Now that I m a sophmore, I really cant afford to play around as much as I used to. I ve always been a good student but last year would've been a disaster if i hadnt shaped up for second semester. I also need to find a steady job ::sigh:: right now I'd go for anything i just really need one. I ve also been thinking about looking into internships and what not.
I really wish I had more friends who liked to go out. I mean home for the summer and no one goes out? blah! well there is a party tomorrow but not really my scene. I m also just scared to ask my parents. I feel like they dont trust me so i m affraid they'll think i m out doing the worst. sometimes I wonder if i m embarrassed at the fact that i ve grown up (when it comes to my family). Like i would never tell them that I date even though i m 19 and i m sure they suspect!!! its just a thing in my household...we're not open about our lives. I wish we were...it would really take a load off of my worries. Like my cousins who bring home anyone they've been dating over a month. but i m affraid my parents would be judgemental. I dont think they would've approved of some of the guys i ve dated in the past 2 yrs. I think they would be fine with the guy I m dating now, except for the age factor. They wouldnt be thrilled with 23.
also my doggy is getting really old. he can barely jump on the bed now and it breaks my heart to watch him try. i have had him since i was 7 so this is really hard for me.
this was a boring entry but i felt i should re-start somewhere.
ok enough of that. So basically I ve spent the past few months trying to relax. After I finished taking a class at BU, I went to Portland,OR for my cousins wedding. It was really cute and intimate with just close friends and family. I got to meet a lot of relatives I never knew, which is funny. When it comes to relatives, one thing that will always remain is the commenting(both positive and negative). Everyone kept gushing over how much I ve changed and how I ve lost so much weight and I ve become so feminine(lol) etc. This was a little shocking to me since I look at myself and see the same person from 7th grade but I guess I cant deny that I m not even the person I was 2 yrs ago. I ve since lost my tomboyish tendencies.lol. oh but the family also seemed to think i was abnormally quiet (i HATE when ppl say that!). I guess they just dont understand that I dont really know them that well anymore...I only see them once a year at most. I also went to Egypt to visit my mom. I really didnt like the tourist things that ppl would typical like (i.e. pyramids, etc) i mean they were fascinating but I guess I m just used to things like that. I have more fun doing things that locals do. I was glad to find out that I havent forgotten my arabic...i could read all the road signs so i knew where i was going AND most importantly,I could bargain!ha! I felt sorry for the poor americans next to me being taken for a ride when they payed nearly $15 for what should've only cost $3. even when they tried to bargain, it was just sad.
School is starting in a few weeks and I m excited/scared. Now that I m a sophmore, I really cant afford to play around as much as I used to. I ve always been a good student but last year would've been a disaster if i hadnt shaped up for second semester. I also need to find a steady job ::sigh:: right now I'd go for anything i just really need one. I ve also been thinking about looking into internships and what not.
I really wish I had more friends who liked to go out. I mean home for the summer and no one goes out? blah! well there is a party tomorrow but not really my scene. I m also just scared to ask my parents. I feel like they dont trust me so i m affraid they'll think i m out doing the worst. sometimes I wonder if i m embarrassed at the fact that i ve grown up (when it comes to my family). Like i would never tell them that I date even though i m 19 and i m sure they suspect!!! its just a thing in my household...we're not open about our lives. I wish we were...it would really take a load off of my worries. Like my cousins who bring home anyone they've been dating over a month. but i m affraid my parents would be judgemental. I dont think they would've approved of some of the guys i ve dated in the past 2 yrs. I think they would be fine with the guy I m dating now, except for the age factor. They wouldnt be thrilled with 23.
also my doggy is getting really old. he can barely jump on the bed now and it breaks my heart to watch him try. i have had him since i was 7 so this is really hard for me.
this was a boring entry but i felt i should re-start somewhere.