Hey its going to be ok.... hopefully
i talked with nicole tonight, my roommates gf. We talked about life and what not, and i told her about my inability to do my hw and get motivated about anything in life (well except somethings, JUNE!!!!!) But she suggested that i should take a drug to make me happier, well i guess thats ok for some people but i would rather not be dependent on a drug to make me feel better. I just need to confront what i have been running from for over 2 years now. But i still dont know what i am fighting. Its like i am running away from myself, my future, and god and running to my past. I think before i take anything, i would have to confront whatever is chasing me, it could destroy "me" but i guess thats a risk i am willing to take. Just not anytime soon. Tomorrow at least i will quit fooling around and start my hw before its too late. Maybe try to be a better student this quarter.
I miss so many people right now, too many people. Lets see there is Ashley, ashley, and ashley, haha, emily, cameron, mike, mike, cam, michelle, rochelle, luke, luke, dan, josh, alyssa, erica, my grandparents, my cousins, christine, jill (even though she goes to the same school we never see each other, ever), tim, masood, PETE!!!! haha crazy drugdealer, knocked-up a girl while still managing to have another girl, both whom he still has a running relationship with, and all of his downhill pattern can be retraced back to one event in his life, graduating early from highschool (see what over achieving does to someone!!???), i miss jeff, chad, meagan, ben, nikky (i guess), her cousin (sort of even though i cant remember her name, she was fun to hang out with, but too damn shy), bruce the asian, mr. bryson, mariko, galen, ryan, ryan, joe, i think thats all i can recall.
Wow i didnt know it was going to be that many people, i guess i didnt lie when i said i missed a lot of people. I wish it was a lie. Time for bed and to brush my teeth b/c this heineken smells like a skunk and yet i still drink it.
I miss so many people right now, too many people. Lets see there is Ashley, ashley, and ashley, haha, emily, cameron, mike, mike, cam, michelle, rochelle, luke, luke, dan, josh, alyssa, erica, my grandparents, my cousins, christine, jill (even though she goes to the same school we never see each other, ever), tim, masood, PETE!!!! haha crazy drugdealer, knocked-up a girl while still managing to have another girl, both whom he still has a running relationship with, and all of his downhill pattern can be retraced back to one event in his life, graduating early from highschool (see what over achieving does to someone!!???), i miss jeff, chad, meagan, ben, nikky (i guess), her cousin (sort of even though i cant remember her name, she was fun to hang out with, but too damn shy), bruce the asian, mr. bryson, mariko, galen, ryan, ryan, joe, i think thats all i can recall.
Wow i didnt know it was going to be that many people, i guess i didnt lie when i said i missed a lot of people. I wish it was a lie. Time for bed and to brush my teeth b/c this heineken smells like a skunk and yet i still drink it.