My Life Is a Boulder
...Hurtling down a mountain and slowly making its way back up a hill.
I just recently broke up with my boyfriend of over a year. I moved back in with my parents and I'm super depressed. However, I am going to get a new tattoo today, so I'm psyched about that. I don't know how long it's going to take to get used to life without Chris. He's my best friend here, the person that's been close by for me and cared for me the entire time I've lived here. I want to pack up and go see Liz and the baby, but school kinda keeps a person put. IF YOU'RE READING THIS LIZ, YOU'RE PARENTS ARE GOING TO BE HERE VERY SOON AND YOU'RE A TOTAL BITCH FOR NOT GETTING OUT OF THAT CAR WITH THEM! Just kidding. I just miss you.
I don't understand how people can be married for twenty years and have five children, then decide to get a divorce. This is one of the hardest things I've gone through. Just the fact that we ended it because we know it's not going to work, even though it was working at the time, makes it that much harder; the fact that we both still love each other very much, but know we're not right for each other is additionally heartbreaking. I miss him so much. I even miss our daily routine. I miss the fact that he won't need me in is daily life to make things run smoothly anymore. I miss sleeping next to him everynight. And most of all, I miss hearing him tell me that he loves me for who I am. Having someone who thinks you're beautiful just the way you are is incredible. And I miss it.
Well, I will continue mourning on my own time. Maybe I'll remember to update this thing more often instead of once every two years.
I just recently broke up with my boyfriend of over a year. I moved back in with my parents and I'm super depressed. However, I am going to get a new tattoo today, so I'm psyched about that. I don't know how long it's going to take to get used to life without Chris. He's my best friend here, the person that's been close by for me and cared for me the entire time I've lived here. I want to pack up and go see Liz and the baby, but school kinda keeps a person put. IF YOU'RE READING THIS LIZ, YOU'RE PARENTS ARE GOING TO BE HERE VERY SOON AND YOU'RE A TOTAL BITCH FOR NOT GETTING OUT OF THAT CAR WITH THEM! Just kidding. I just miss you.
I don't understand how people can be married for twenty years and have five children, then decide to get a divorce. This is one of the hardest things I've gone through. Just the fact that we ended it because we know it's not going to work, even though it was working at the time, makes it that much harder; the fact that we both still love each other very much, but know we're not right for each other is additionally heartbreaking. I miss him so much. I even miss our daily routine. I miss the fact that he won't need me in is daily life to make things run smoothly anymore. I miss sleeping next to him everynight. And most of all, I miss hearing him tell me that he loves me for who I am. Having someone who thinks you're beautiful just the way you are is incredible. And I miss it.
Well, I will continue mourning on my own time. Maybe I'll remember to update this thing more often instead of once every two years.