Twenty years, it's breaking you down...
I've almost completely given up on hopes of having a family again. It's almost hard to remember at this point what a family should be like. It's so far gone already. We'll never be the same again even if she ever comes back. But the doctor (moron) says she's absolutely fine while she rips everyone I love even farther apart. Helplessness is probably one of the feelings ever. And it's starting to turn to hopelessness. Thank goodness for my boy, my friends, and certain people in my family. I'd probably be sitting in a bed next to her in the hospital if I didn't have them. Ugh, really bad thought.
I just want to leave and forget all of this. I wish I was old enough/financially stable enough to live on my own and never need to come home. I worry about my dad a lot. This is unbearable for him emotionally, psychologically, and physically. I don't want to lose him, too. I'm ready to wake up from this now, I wish it was just a bad dream that thinking about bunnies frolicing in a field could cure. <-- yup I think about that when I have nightmares.
Well, now that I've spent pretty much the whole night on the computer not doing homework, I think I'll do something productive now.
I just want to leave and forget all of this. I wish I was old enough/financially stable enough to live on my own and never need to come home. I worry about my dad a lot. This is unbearable for him emotionally, psychologically, and physically. I don't want to lose him, too. I'm ready to wake up from this now, I wish it was just a bad dream that thinking about bunnies frolicing in a field could cure. <-- yup I think about that when I have nightmares.
Well, now that I've spent pretty much the whole night on the computer not doing homework, I think I'll do something productive now.