from exactly 9 months and 7 days ago
Today was a wicked awesome day!
Lan party was nice. I pirated over $250 worth of games. I'm ok with that cuz i wouldnt have bought them anyway. at 7 we decided it was over. I felt bad for Ray. His new computers had drive was destroyed. He only had it for a day and the kid that built it for him was in the room. So the kid leaves his computer for Ray to play on cuz he felt bad and he had to go to work. Then the kids computer didnt work but everything worked out ok. Ray brought out his old computer and played on it.
so i go home and take a shower (i never actually got sleep that night) and then go to church. I couldnt stay awake at all. I drifted in and out of conciousness the whole time. So i got nothing out of the sermon. I did manage to get something acomplished though but ill save that for towards the end.
After church i went home and took a nap til 3.
After the nap, it was time for the final mission trip meeting. It was nice to see everybody again. It wasnt quite as fun as i hoped it would be but i still enjoyed it. I decided i need to talk to candice more. I wanted to but she disappeared for weeks after the trip. Lindsay, Jenn, Jordan, Lindsay, Pastor Jason, Peter, and Val I have pretty well covered. But Alison, Candice, and Laurie I dont. So i figure ill tackle it one at a time. Candice first.
Then i went home and played computer games for an hour.
Then I went to church again. It was a good one. Pj talked to us about things we need to give up. Things that get in the way of our relationship with God. And he asked us who's ready to give it up. And a bunch of the guys said i am. Eric did. That made me happy. I hope he can stick with it. It made me realize some of the stuff that i need to get rid of. And its funny cause it went along with what ive been stuggling with for a while. The stuff i was doing at church... it just fit. I am very excited about wednesday. I cant exactly burn what i need to get rid of so im just gonna write it down. all of it. Its gonna be a big list. Some Mercy Me just popped into my head. You know that line where he sings ," I surrender to your grace, I surrender to the one who took my place" It was kind of one of those moments. Wednesdays gonna be amazing.
Then it was off to the lintons. It was kind of fun. I gave Eric my clothes since seth pushed him into the pool. I like taking care of people.I decided that. I feel like i need to protect the people that are around me. Help them if i can. I guess its cause i'm the oldest one there outside of brandon who doesnt count cuz he acts like hes 12 (and i love him for that) and bryan who just wont say anything and when he does hes too nice about it (i love bryan too). Im not ashamed to act like im 12 either though. The whole night i was teasing amanda. Id put my finger really close to her face and say im not touching you. Shes a lot of fun to pick on. Too bad shes not as gillble as jenn and val. I was the cell phone thief tonight too . First i took Vals and put it up really high for me. So not that high... but it was fun. Then i stole jenn's. This was very fun. I had it for a long time and they wouldnt let me leave until i gave it back. So while they werent paying attention i gave it to matt. They still thought i had it. When they discovered i didnt have it they didnt know who to blame. Then they saw matt. So jenn gave matt a big hug and was trying to find it. While she was doing this matt handed me the phone behind her back. Then i walked away and gave it to brandon. SO the blame went back to me. eventually they beat me up. Jenn had me wrapped up. wow is she strong. That hurt. and bryan rooted around in my pockets in the straightest way possible. Then they noticed that brandon had it and amanda took it from him and gave it back to jenn. THen i announced that amanda had it the whole time. By that point she was very mad at me. I felt bad. I was just having fun. But i didnt want her to be mad so i appologized. and i think that made it better. Long story. Prolly unimportant to you but it stuck out in my mind so i typed it. afterwords all the seniors cept tim sat outside talking forever. I liked that too.
Then we decided to go to archies instead of going home. That i really enjoyed. First, I got there way before everyone else. So i sat in my car and listened to music. When Val and Amanda showed up, i got out of my car and ran as quitely as i could and went rawr ad touched amanda. They screamed. Val threw her pure. I laughed. it was a good time.We all sat down and i was happy cuz i got to spend the night with my favorite person that is alive, in the flesch, here on earth. Cant figure out who it is? Ill give you a hint: Val Amanda, Jenn and I went and Brandon showed up late. Brett Baker (cool guy) and Nick Wallace were there too but not with us. Still cant figure out who it is? Ok Ok... It's... ME! hehehe ok that was fun. So amanda talked about stuff some of it made me terribly sad and i wanted to help her out but theres no way i could. And the other part was very uplifting and funny. I had a good joke too. I felt bad for saying it though and later apologized to the person. It was just really fun. I liked spending time with all of them before they leave. I wanna do it some more. Especially with amanda. Shes gonna be so far away that its gonna be hard to visit. Vals fine. Shes two hours away and people can get there easily. Since amanda doesnt read this as far as i know, can someone tell her that im praying for her and her family.
Then we all went home. I had a good time there too. First i got to talk to seth online. I dont think he realizes how much i like him. Hes a really fun guy. and really cool. Theres so many things about him that i admire its rediculous. i love you buddy. I hope you have a good time next year being the old guy.
During and after my talk with seth i wrote a letter to pj telling him how much i love him. hes done so much for our youth group in such a short amount of time. The letters covered with tears and some of the words got a little blurred. I cant wait to give it to him.
After that it was talk to Jenn and Val til 4:30 in the mourning time. Those times have really made my summer. I love both of you so much. I can talk to you two about anything it feels like. and as with seth theres so much about both of you i admire. Jenn you take care of everyone around you before you deal with youre own problems. Youre fun and amazingly talented in everything you do. Youre one of the guys when you need to be and then you can be the biggest girl i know in the snap of a finger. Val, you've got such courage... cept when it comes to escalators. You went to mexico even though you knew itd be difficult. You went a buden at all. You were a blessing. A blessing that cant hold onto a donkey. when you fell and broke your collarbone you didnt complain. You lied and said you were fine. Youre fun and easy to talk to. Youre ignorance of all things evil is a great thing. keep that. Im glad that we do so little together in person. Cuz if we did id miss it a lot when you left. but since you can still talk online were good.
During our talk Jenn and I decided were going back to texas. Im bringing all the money i can and jenns bringing more and were gonna drive her car down there and visit pastor frank. I guess weve shared the dream of going on a spontenous road trip. So we decided that if her managers will give her the days off were going on thursday. I have yet to tell my mother this but shell understand.
Then i had a comversation with val about faith and worry. It was one of those moments of genius and extreme religiousness. i busted out this cool analogy about how a little kid has faith because he knows everything is gonna get taken care of. His parents protect him and the kid can see that they do that. Its the same way with God. If you dont want to worry and want to have faith you just have to realize that God takes care of you. If you sit down and think about all the times God has placed someone in your life or protected you youll begin to realize that hes always been there. and that he always will be. You begin to realize that there is no reason to worry because Gods gonna take care of it for you. I hope i helped her with that. after that it was bedtime.
Hmm i guess its time to explain what i did in church. Well it involves one of my favorite group of verses in the bible. Joshua 24:15-20. Just in case youre too lazy to go get a bible ill paste it here:
15 But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your forefathers served beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD ."
16 Then the people answered, "Far be it from us to forsake the LORD to serve other gods! 17 It was the LORD our God himself who brought us and our fathers up out of Egypt, from that land of slavery, and performed those great signs before our eyes. He protected us on our entire journey and among all the nations through which we traveled. 18 And the LORD drove out before us all the nations, including the Amorites, who lived in the land. We too will serve the LORD , because he is our God."
19 Joshua said to the people, "You are not able to serve the LORD . He is a holy God; he is a jealous God. He will not forgive your rebellion and your sins. 20 If you forsake the LORD and serve foreign gods, he will turn and bring disaster on you and make an end of you, after he has been good to you."
What ive been struggling with is putting other things before God. Basically just things i do instead of spending time with God, video games for instance. I play videogames so much that i dont spend time with God. So its one of the things that im not gonna do as much anymore and its partially because of Pj's lesson. But what i did in church was make a list of all the things im thankful God has done or given to me. Kind of like the people did in 17 and 18 above. Hes done so much for me that he deserves all my worship and my praise. So heres the list, straight from the side of my buliten in no particualr order...
grace
life
air
light
my posessions
my house
my family
pastor allen and sally
pastor jason
pastor brent and linda
lindsay
Jake
Luke
Brian
Blesing
Air Mash
Jenn
Val
Seth
The Coles
Gary Burns
The Linton's
laughter
music
food
protection
The Miller's
Tress, grass, flowers, the sun, animals
water
doctors
Pastor frank and his family
The bible
freedom
oppurtunities
peace
sleep
sight, hearing, feeling, tasting, and smelling
prayer
colors
salvation
Matt Yerke
Love
Brandon
Tim
Bryan
The people i saw everyday in school that said hi to me
My dogs
heaven
technology
The Dorman's
The Russels
so much more i just cant even fathom
So thankyou God for giving me all this and more. Thankyou people for al youve done for me. I'll never be able to repay you for all youve done. You all mean so much to me. Goodnight.
Lan party was nice. I pirated over $250 worth of games. I'm ok with that cuz i wouldnt have bought them anyway. at 7 we decided it was over. I felt bad for Ray. His new computers had drive was destroyed. He only had it for a day and the kid that built it for him was in the room. So the kid leaves his computer for Ray to play on cuz he felt bad and he had to go to work. Then the kids computer didnt work but everything worked out ok. Ray brought out his old computer and played on it.
so i go home and take a shower (i never actually got sleep that night) and then go to church. I couldnt stay awake at all. I drifted in and out of conciousness the whole time. So i got nothing out of the sermon. I did manage to get something acomplished though but ill save that for towards the end.
After church i went home and took a nap til 3.
After the nap, it was time for the final mission trip meeting. It was nice to see everybody again. It wasnt quite as fun as i hoped it would be but i still enjoyed it. I decided i need to talk to candice more. I wanted to but she disappeared for weeks after the trip. Lindsay, Jenn, Jordan, Lindsay, Pastor Jason, Peter, and Val I have pretty well covered. But Alison, Candice, and Laurie I dont. So i figure ill tackle it one at a time. Candice first.
Then i went home and played computer games for an hour.
Then I went to church again. It was a good one. Pj talked to us about things we need to give up. Things that get in the way of our relationship with God. And he asked us who's ready to give it up. And a bunch of the guys said i am. Eric did. That made me happy. I hope he can stick with it. It made me realize some of the stuff that i need to get rid of. And its funny cause it went along with what ive been stuggling with for a while. The stuff i was doing at church... it just fit. I am very excited about wednesday. I cant exactly burn what i need to get rid of so im just gonna write it down. all of it. Its gonna be a big list. Some Mercy Me just popped into my head. You know that line where he sings ," I surrender to your grace, I surrender to the one who took my place" It was kind of one of those moments. Wednesdays gonna be amazing.
Then it was off to the lintons. It was kind of fun. I gave Eric my clothes since seth pushed him into the pool. I like taking care of people.I decided that. I feel like i need to protect the people that are around me. Help them if i can. I guess its cause i'm the oldest one there outside of brandon who doesnt count cuz he acts like hes 12 (and i love him for that) and bryan who just wont say anything and when he does hes too nice about it (i love bryan too). Im not ashamed to act like im 12 either though. The whole night i was teasing amanda. Id put my finger really close to her face and say im not touching you. Shes a lot of fun to pick on. Too bad shes not as gillble as jenn and val. I was the cell phone thief tonight too . First i took Vals and put it up really high for me. So not that high... but it was fun. Then i stole jenn's. This was very fun. I had it for a long time and they wouldnt let me leave until i gave it back. So while they werent paying attention i gave it to matt. They still thought i had it. When they discovered i didnt have it they didnt know who to blame. Then they saw matt. So jenn gave matt a big hug and was trying to find it. While she was doing this matt handed me the phone behind her back. Then i walked away and gave it to brandon. SO the blame went back to me. eventually they beat me up. Jenn had me wrapped up. wow is she strong. That hurt. and bryan rooted around in my pockets in the straightest way possible. Then they noticed that brandon had it and amanda took it from him and gave it back to jenn. THen i announced that amanda had it the whole time. By that point she was very mad at me. I felt bad. I was just having fun. But i didnt want her to be mad so i appologized. and i think that made it better. Long story. Prolly unimportant to you but it stuck out in my mind so i typed it. afterwords all the seniors cept tim sat outside talking forever. I liked that too.
Then we decided to go to archies instead of going home. That i really enjoyed. First, I got there way before everyone else. So i sat in my car and listened to music. When Val and Amanda showed up, i got out of my car and ran as quitely as i could and went rawr ad touched amanda. They screamed. Val threw her pure. I laughed. it was a good time.We all sat down and i was happy cuz i got to spend the night with my favorite person that is alive, in the flesch, here on earth. Cant figure out who it is? Ill give you a hint: Val Amanda, Jenn and I went and Brandon showed up late. Brett Baker (cool guy) and Nick Wallace were there too but not with us. Still cant figure out who it is? Ok Ok... It's... ME! hehehe ok that was fun. So amanda talked about stuff some of it made me terribly sad and i wanted to help her out but theres no way i could. And the other part was very uplifting and funny. I had a good joke too. I felt bad for saying it though and later apologized to the person. It was just really fun. I liked spending time with all of them before they leave. I wanna do it some more. Especially with amanda. Shes gonna be so far away that its gonna be hard to visit. Vals fine. Shes two hours away and people can get there easily. Since amanda doesnt read this as far as i know, can someone tell her that im praying for her and her family.
Then we all went home. I had a good time there too. First i got to talk to seth online. I dont think he realizes how much i like him. Hes a really fun guy. and really cool. Theres so many things about him that i admire its rediculous. i love you buddy. I hope you have a good time next year being the old guy.
During and after my talk with seth i wrote a letter to pj telling him how much i love him. hes done so much for our youth group in such a short amount of time. The letters covered with tears and some of the words got a little blurred. I cant wait to give it to him.
After that it was talk to Jenn and Val til 4:30 in the mourning time. Those times have really made my summer. I love both of you so much. I can talk to you two about anything it feels like. and as with seth theres so much about both of you i admire. Jenn you take care of everyone around you before you deal with youre own problems. Youre fun and amazingly talented in everything you do. Youre one of the guys when you need to be and then you can be the biggest girl i know in the snap of a finger. Val, you've got such courage... cept when it comes to escalators. You went to mexico even though you knew itd be difficult. You went a buden at all. You were a blessing. A blessing that cant hold onto a donkey. when you fell and broke your collarbone you didnt complain. You lied and said you were fine. Youre fun and easy to talk to. Youre ignorance of all things evil is a great thing. keep that. Im glad that we do so little together in person. Cuz if we did id miss it a lot when you left. but since you can still talk online were good.
During our talk Jenn and I decided were going back to texas. Im bringing all the money i can and jenns bringing more and were gonna drive her car down there and visit pastor frank. I guess weve shared the dream of going on a spontenous road trip. So we decided that if her managers will give her the days off were going on thursday. I have yet to tell my mother this but shell understand.
Then i had a comversation with val about faith and worry. It was one of those moments of genius and extreme religiousness. i busted out this cool analogy about how a little kid has faith because he knows everything is gonna get taken care of. His parents protect him and the kid can see that they do that. Its the same way with God. If you dont want to worry and want to have faith you just have to realize that God takes care of you. If you sit down and think about all the times God has placed someone in your life or protected you youll begin to realize that hes always been there. and that he always will be. You begin to realize that there is no reason to worry because Gods gonna take care of it for you. I hope i helped her with that. after that it was bedtime.
Hmm i guess its time to explain what i did in church. Well it involves one of my favorite group of verses in the bible. Joshua 24:15-20. Just in case youre too lazy to go get a bible ill paste it here:
15 But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your forefathers served beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD ."
16 Then the people answered, "Far be it from us to forsake the LORD to serve other gods! 17 It was the LORD our God himself who brought us and our fathers up out of Egypt, from that land of slavery, and performed those great signs before our eyes. He protected us on our entire journey and among all the nations through which we traveled. 18 And the LORD drove out before us all the nations, including the Amorites, who lived in the land. We too will serve the LORD , because he is our God."
19 Joshua said to the people, "You are not able to serve the LORD . He is a holy God; he is a jealous God. He will not forgive your rebellion and your sins. 20 If you forsake the LORD and serve foreign gods, he will turn and bring disaster on you and make an end of you, after he has been good to you."
What ive been struggling with is putting other things before God. Basically just things i do instead of spending time with God, video games for instance. I play videogames so much that i dont spend time with God. So its one of the things that im not gonna do as much anymore and its partially because of Pj's lesson. But what i did in church was make a list of all the things im thankful God has done or given to me. Kind of like the people did in 17 and 18 above. Hes done so much for me that he deserves all my worship and my praise. So heres the list, straight from the side of my buliten in no particualr order...
grace
life
air
light
my posessions
my house
my family
pastor allen and sally
pastor jason
pastor brent and linda
lindsay
Jake
Luke
Brian
Blesing
Air Mash
Jenn
Val
Seth
The Coles
Gary Burns
The Linton's
laughter
music
food
protection
The Miller's
Tress, grass, flowers, the sun, animals
water
doctors
Pastor frank and his family
The bible
freedom
oppurtunities
peace
sleep
sight, hearing, feeling, tasting, and smelling
prayer
colors
salvation
Matt Yerke
Love
Brandon
Tim
Bryan
The people i saw everyday in school that said hi to me
My dogs
heaven
technology
The Dorman's
The Russels
so much more i just cant even fathom
So thankyou God for giving me all this and more. Thankyou people for al youve done for me. I'll never be able to repay you for all youve done. You all mean so much to me. Goodnight.