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[thunderzach]

i'm not feeling to loved right now. theres a variety of reasons for this. its kinda been the theme all day. although i bet if i hadnt felt it earlier i wouldnt feel like it now. at work today i was just getting this vibe that i wasnt wanted there. just the way people responded when i talked bothered me. Bob told me to work hard today so i tried. i shelved every book on the sorting shelf, did 1st and 2nd floor pickup, did a few tax reporters and watched the desk with lana so bob and jane could go get on a lunch break. usually all i do is shelve some magazines and waatch the desk... maybe do a few taxreporters if theres something to do. I just didnt feel like i did enough today. psych class was cancelled today. sadly the computer network went down during this time so i couldnt get much done. i did end up by checking out cell phone plans tough cuz i got things to work towards the end of my normal class. Phtsics was bad today. i rushed through everything cuz all we did was learn to code in python. it was so much like C++ i knew most of it already. the last part though took me like an hour and a half to do. i asked a bunch of questions and i felt stupid. he seemed to not wanna help me. and then i was trying to help Tim get to where i was and it wasnt working and i felt bad. then i came home. masch called me during lab to do stuff. i told him no cuz i had a paper to write and possible other plans. so i didnt hang out with him although im thinking now i should have. i got a lot done on my paper. i finished all but the actual research part of it. i have my account of columbus from elementary and a conclusion an an intro and thats all 3 pages or so. so now i have 2 pages to put facts about columbus. it shouldnt be to hard i just dont wanna do it.

i really need to run the cable in my room again so i can watch tv and talk on aim at the same time.

to all of you that spoke to me tonight i thank you. Val thanks for the last IM you sent me. it made me feel better. not completely but it helped.

i just saw the picture on my desktop and started crying...

goodnight everyone

ps happy 150th entry to me