today in a nutshell...
came home from jakes at 4:40 am and went to bed. got up and went to church. bryan and i were the only ones there. so then i went to service and it ws a good one and it made me think alot. i may listen to it again tonight. then i came home and got my computer and hookewd most of it back up but i forgot the power cord to the router so i had to go all the way back to jakes house... then i went to my grandma's to eat which i wasnt to thrilled about cuz they made food at 1 and i was hungry at 11. plus 1's right in the middle of the day so that meant not having much time to do anything with. so i get to grandma' and my grandpa tries to make me fix his printer and a whole bunch of other problems that 1 i dont know how to fix and 2 they are so minute that theres no reason to not just deal with them. so i get ready to leave way after i wanted to and my keys are in the ignition while the cars locked. i was the last car in the driveway so it looked as if no one could get around me to go get my spare set. so i called jenn and was gonna ask her to get them but she didnt answer. everyone was lecturing me on how i shouldnt do things like that when ive taken thier keys to them before. so my grandpa and i tried to slim jim it but that failed. so eventually jordan backed his car out around mine and went home and got them. so i got to leave about 3. then i came home to get the tremndous amount of things i wanted to get done finished... fell asleep around 4-5 after getting a call saying church was cancelled which also saddened me.
i feel really... hurt and upset and lonely and bored and unliked by some right now. i hate feeling like this. and its been happening a lot lately. part of its my fault part of its lack of sleep but part of it is reasonable. i cant even think of things to add to my good things that happened today list... which upsets me even more. i think ill jst try to hold onto "god loves me" today. i was gonna go play some videogames to help me repress the things running through my head but instead i think ill read the bible....
just pray for me i guess...
eh 1 thing to add to the list brian's mom's account got unfrozen today...
if i told you "i love you" could you honestly respond with "i know"?
i feel really... hurt and upset and lonely and bored and unliked by some right now. i hate feeling like this. and its been happening a lot lately. part of its my fault part of its lack of sleep but part of it is reasonable. i cant even think of things to add to my good things that happened today list... which upsets me even more. i think ill jst try to hold onto "god loves me" today. i was gonna go play some videogames to help me repress the things running through my head but instead i think ill read the bible....
just pray for me i guess...
eh 1 thing to add to the list brian's mom's account got unfrozen today...
if i told you "i love you" could you honestly respond with "i know"?