61; You've Felt It, Can't Erase It Now
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I… Ah…
That was… goddamn it, Grimmjow was right. It is… intoxicating…
It was like… no matter what we did, even if I was doing all the work or he was, it wasn’t just giving to get, it was… sharing. As if… there was something more to it, than just the sensation, as if…
… I’d never said I loved anyone during sex before. … Just out the blue, before, but yesterday … I did, and wanted him to know. Because I never have, I never will. Arrancar don’t love, Arrancar don’t have hearts, we don’t, we don’t-
And we didn’t even have to be having sex, just… sitting together, talking, kissing, being… together… was nice… because… I loved him?
He certainly won’t want anything to do with me now… not after that. … Not after being so nice to me. … He’ll leave. And I don’t… I don’t love him, I don’t love anyone. I don’t. Ever. Never.
… It felt good. Even if it was foolish and stupid and will never happen. Ever.
Fuck.
This is just great. Sure, we’re made from Hollows, we have no hearts, just a hole in our chests, but I’ve never actually felt really incomplete.
… But now I feel like I’m missing out on something.
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Heh, yesterday was rather… what’s the word… inconvenient? I didn’t even know what half the shit that came out my mouth even meant, though, I noticed, certain things never do change, do they?
Noitora, precious, sorry for scaring you so badly~ ♥ Rori is coming by to see you later, does that make it better?
Il Forte, I didn-
Boys, you all need anything? Grimmjow, you were smarter than I anticipated, I expected it from Ulquiorra and Zae-
… Speaking of Zaera-Polo…
Kitty~~~~ What did I tell you?~ And what was that coming out of your goddamned mouth, hmm?
I promise I would neve-
Moving on~ Curses, curses, then moving on~ ♥ As if they’re anything to get worked up about.
Honestly, if these curses were supposed to get me anxious or something, they should be a little more realistic. Love? Tch, as if we’re even capable. They’d have done better with affection, perhaps that would be more plausible, but the impossible? Can’t get upset about the impossible.
I… Ah…
That was… goddamn it, Grimmjow was right. It is… intoxicating…
It was like… no matter what we did, even if I was doing all the work or he was, it wasn’t just giving to get, it was… sharing. As if… there was something more to it, than just the sensation, as if…
… I’d never said I loved anyone during sex before. … Just out the blue, before, but yesterday … I did, and wanted him to know. Because I never have, I never will. Arrancar don’t love, Arrancar don’t have hearts, we don’t, we don’t-
And we didn’t even have to be having sex, just… sitting together, talking, kissing, being… together… was nice… because… I loved him?
He certainly won’t want anything to do with me now… not after that. … Not after being so nice to me. … He’ll leave. And I don’t… I don’t love him, I don’t love anyone. I don’t. Ever. Never.
… It felt good. Even if it was foolish and stupid and will never happen. Ever.
Fuck.
This is just great. Sure, we’re made from Hollows, we have no hearts, just a hole in our chests, but I’ve never actually felt really incomplete.
… But now I feel like I’m missing out on something.
[/Private]
Heh, yesterday was rather… what’s the word… inconvenient? I didn’t even know what half the shit that came out my mouth even meant, though, I noticed, certain things never do change, do they?
Noitora, precious, sorry for scaring you so badly~ ♥ Rori is coming by to see you later, does that make it better?
Il Forte, I didn-
Boys, you all need anything? Grimmjow, you were smarter than I anticipated, I expected it from Ulquiorra and Zae-
… Speaking of Zaera-Polo…
Kitty~~~~ What did I tell you?~ And what was that coming out of your goddamned mouth, hmm?
I promise I would neve-
Moving on~ Curses, curses, then moving on~ ♥ As if they’re anything to get worked up about.
Honestly, if these curses were supposed to get me anxious or something, they should be a little more realistic. Love? Tch, as if we’re even capable. They’d have done better with affection, perhaps that would be more plausible, but the impossible? Can’t get upset about the impossible.