4 days = power_good, lol
105 days to go... eeeeeeee!
Feeling healthier than I have done in what seems like ages. Only one or two dizzy spells a day, no fainting, minimal mood swings. I think that's pretty damn good considering the current circumstances. The addition of the L-Carnitine to my supplements regime is definitely noticeable. My muscles "buzz" more noticably after exercising. That has to be good, right? Scale stayed put at 8stone 12.5lb/124.5lbs yesterday, with no variation. Oh, please baby Jesus, don't let it go up! Cals under 1200, 40 minutes cardio/strength training. :) No binge/purge/lax. Had a little wobble about 11pm and NEARLY went nuts with the tin of Quality Street, but sufficiently chastised myself into avoiding the binge. Had a cuppa coffee with hazelnut splenda instead, and came on here - good girl.
Had to call doctor's office for the kids this morning. The three babies took a turn for the worse yesterday afternoon. Snot turning yellow/green and thick, and eye infections all round. Looooovelyyyyyy. The doc's assistant knows us well, as you might imagine. Me with my troubles, my husband with his, and 5 kids. She just had a quick chat with me over the phone and then said she'd have prescriptions waiting at pharmacy for me to pick up. Didn't end up having to make a proper doc appt after all, thank fuck. I dare ya to try bring three under-3's to the doctor's office, lol. It's one of the most stressful things to do, believe.
Still no news from the jailbird. Whatever. Can't be bothered now to worry about it. I have more immediate things to deal with.
Didn't do my studying last night as the natives were restless until late, and by the time everyone was settled I couldn't be assed to get all the gear out and concentrate. :( But I will do tonight, if all goes well with the new medications for everyone. I'm determined not to let myself get behind again.
One of the members of one of the communities I belong to posted a link to this website where they have zillions of online tests for personality traits/mental disorders/eating disorders/ relationships, etc., etc. And, yes you guessed it, I spent a good long time taking all these different tests. Why do I do it to myself? Honestly. I think, really, it's because when I was in the hospital I was positive they weren't telling me everything. I am certain there were things they didn't want me to know, because they refused to show me my file, and when I asked what diagnoses I had been given they were very vague and wierd about it. And me beng who I am, that really got to me. I was on all sorts of medications and they wouldn't go into detail regarding WHY I was given certain things. Yeah - uh, just leave me hanging here cuz I'm not fucking paranoid enough, right? haha assholes. So yeah, went and took loads of tests to see how fucked up I really am. I wasn't really surprised by any of the results, but it IS depressing, really. HOWEVER, I haven't had any "episodes" other than eating-related stuff, which is good for me, so I'm going to focus on that and not all the things they say I am. Fuck them. But I secretly like being able to have access to some information, even if it's bunk/somewhat inaccurate. Not much different than my relationship with calorie counters, scales, etc. I am a walking contradiction.
And that's the news.
Feeling healthier than I have done in what seems like ages. Only one or two dizzy spells a day, no fainting, minimal mood swings. I think that's pretty damn good considering the current circumstances. The addition of the L-Carnitine to my supplements regime is definitely noticeable. My muscles "buzz" more noticably after exercising. That has to be good, right? Scale stayed put at 8stone 12.5lb/124.5lbs yesterday, with no variation. Oh, please baby Jesus, don't let it go up! Cals under 1200, 40 minutes cardio/strength training. :) No binge/purge/lax. Had a little wobble about 11pm and NEARLY went nuts with the tin of Quality Street, but sufficiently chastised myself into avoiding the binge. Had a cuppa coffee with hazelnut splenda instead, and came on here - good girl.
Had to call doctor's office for the kids this morning. The three babies took a turn for the worse yesterday afternoon. Snot turning yellow/green and thick, and eye infections all round. Looooovelyyyyyy. The doc's assistant knows us well, as you might imagine. Me with my troubles, my husband with his, and 5 kids. She just had a quick chat with me over the phone and then said she'd have prescriptions waiting at pharmacy for me to pick up. Didn't end up having to make a proper doc appt after all, thank fuck. I dare ya to try bring three under-3's to the doctor's office, lol. It's one of the most stressful things to do, believe.
Still no news from the jailbird. Whatever. Can't be bothered now to worry about it. I have more immediate things to deal with.
Didn't do my studying last night as the natives were restless until late, and by the time everyone was settled I couldn't be assed to get all the gear out and concentrate. :( But I will do tonight, if all goes well with the new medications for everyone. I'm determined not to let myself get behind again.
One of the members of one of the communities I belong to posted a link to this website where they have zillions of online tests for personality traits/mental disorders/eating disorders/ relationships, etc., etc. And, yes you guessed it, I spent a good long time taking all these different tests. Why do I do it to myself? Honestly. I think, really, it's because when I was in the hospital I was positive they weren't telling me everything. I am certain there were things they didn't want me to know, because they refused to show me my file, and when I asked what diagnoses I had been given they were very vague and wierd about it. And me beng who I am, that really got to me. I was on all sorts of medications and they wouldn't go into detail regarding WHY I was given certain things. Yeah - uh, just leave me hanging here cuz I'm not fucking paranoid enough, right? haha assholes. So yeah, went and took loads of tests to see how fucked up I really am. I wasn't really surprised by any of the results, but it IS depressing, really. HOWEVER, I haven't had any "episodes" other than eating-related stuff, which is good for me, so I'm going to focus on that and not all the things they say I am. Fuck them. But I secretly like being able to have access to some information, even if it's bunk/somewhat inaccurate. Not much different than my relationship with calorie counters, scales, etc. I am a walking contradiction.
And that's the news.