Born to lose
today:
**bad day at school.
**i sit at "the lunch table" and tim gets up and leaves. OUCH. that made me pretty upset for a while but then i got over it because i realized tim is never going to be my friend again and i'm just going to deal with it. Answer me this though... if he doesnt care about me anymore then why does he try so hard to make me see that he hates me and that he wants nothing to do with me? I GET IT... he has a girlfriend... i get the point of him not wanting me in his life... as he said before. Why doesnt he just stop though... why cant he see that even though we have nothing not even a friendship anymore it still hurts me. It seems like he tries so hard to hurt me. I DONT GET IT!!!!!
**lauren came over
**brittany harthon, brittany ohmke and joey adamczyk all stopped by to say hi unexpectedly and it was soooo wonderful.
**joe stopped by for a minute to get a hoodie and say goodbye to me
**Me karolina and lauren went to the football game
**Frankie picked us up
**went to the mall with dan erin karolina frankie nick and lauren
**bought a bettie page poster and a beatles poster
**stopped by coleens and saw trnka brittany and brittany
**went home
Well today i realized that i am SO jelous of everyone... and i cant keep up with anyone either... i want to be with everyone i want to be friends with everyone i want to always be a part of everything. I hate not being with everyone. Another thing... im so jelous and i want to look like everyone and i want to have so many things and i get so frustrated when i dont get them. Like today in rock america they had this awesome violent femmes shirt and i wanted it so much but did i get it? NO. I got mad hahaha. Then i looked at pictures of people and i wanted so much to look like them and i hate the way i look/act. I just want to be everyone else. JSGfd.jkHDOIHL?DWKDHL?KQJ i'm gay.
**bad day at school.
**i sit at "the lunch table" and tim gets up and leaves. OUCH. that made me pretty upset for a while but then i got over it because i realized tim is never going to be my friend again and i'm just going to deal with it. Answer me this though... if he doesnt care about me anymore then why does he try so hard to make me see that he hates me and that he wants nothing to do with me? I GET IT... he has a girlfriend... i get the point of him not wanting me in his life... as he said before. Why doesnt he just stop though... why cant he see that even though we have nothing not even a friendship anymore it still hurts me. It seems like he tries so hard to hurt me. I DONT GET IT!!!!!
**lauren came over
**brittany harthon, brittany ohmke and joey adamczyk all stopped by to say hi unexpectedly and it was soooo wonderful.
**joe stopped by for a minute to get a hoodie and say goodbye to me
**Me karolina and lauren went to the football game
**Frankie picked us up
**went to the mall with dan erin karolina frankie nick and lauren
**bought a bettie page poster and a beatles poster
**stopped by coleens and saw trnka brittany and brittany
**went home
Well today i realized that i am SO jelous of everyone... and i cant keep up with anyone either... i want to be with everyone i want to be friends with everyone i want to always be a part of everything. I hate not being with everyone. Another thing... im so jelous and i want to look like everyone and i want to have so many things and i get so frustrated when i dont get them. Like today in rock america they had this awesome violent femmes shirt and i wanted it so much but did i get it? NO. I got mad hahaha. Then i looked at pictures of people and i wanted so much to look like them and i hate the way i look/act. I just want to be everyone else. JSGfd.jkHDOIHL?DWKDHL?KQJ i'm gay.