seriously, fuck everything.
i had to put pan down today.
he had feline infectious peritonitis.
basically, there was nothing we could do to save him. there could have been a lot of tests, and a lot of money would have been spent, but FIP isn't curable, and Pan would have just suffered more.
I know i did the right thing...
but, i'm a complete wreck.
i can't stop crying.
i'm going to sleep the rest of the day.
i just don't want to be awake.