Days like today
When I want to be around people I love, but not have to say a word. When I want to paint and clean and decorate all at once. When I want to sigh and look at things for the way they really are and go "You know? That's just right..." no matter how bad it is. Because right now I feel at peace.
Maybe that's what 3 hours of coffee talk will do to a person. When you find yourself thinking about every fucked up situation you've ever gone through...just to open your eyes and find yourself, whole, happy, and sitting with a close friend over a cup of coffee.
I feel like I have so much more to write...but no words in which to describe how I feel or what I'm thinking right now.
It's an odd feeling, knowing that you've made your family, a little bit of pride mixed with wonder. From feeling like I had no one I found Mema and Jeremy...Donna and Uncle Benny...then Connor and Virginia...Carmen and Sara. Sometimes I worry about whether or not things will change someday and I'll have to start from scratch all over again...but then I remember that you always carry family in your heart, no matter what happens. And I wouldn't change the way things are right now.
Listen to me...all mushy and shit...maybe this is why I feel like being quiet.
With people that have always had the love and support of a family I don't know how to describe what it feels like to finally have it 100%, even if it's not from your blood.
I hope my grandmother can go out to eat with us on Thursday. I've been wanting her to meet all you guys for a long time now...'cuz I've realized that you're more than just friends to me...Your family.
...even if you would kill eachother over some food.
Maybe that's what 3 hours of coffee talk will do to a person. When you find yourself thinking about every fucked up situation you've ever gone through...just to open your eyes and find yourself, whole, happy, and sitting with a close friend over a cup of coffee.
I feel like I have so much more to write...but no words in which to describe how I feel or what I'm thinking right now.
It's an odd feeling, knowing that you've made your family, a little bit of pride mixed with wonder. From feeling like I had no one I found Mema and Jeremy...Donna and Uncle Benny...then Connor and Virginia...Carmen and Sara. Sometimes I worry about whether or not things will change someday and I'll have to start from scratch all over again...but then I remember that you always carry family in your heart, no matter what happens. And I wouldn't change the way things are right now.
Listen to me...all mushy and shit...maybe this is why I feel like being quiet.
With people that have always had the love and support of a family I don't know how to describe what it feels like to finally have it 100%, even if it's not from your blood.
I hope my grandmother can go out to eat with us on Thursday. I've been wanting her to meet all you guys for a long time now...'cuz I've realized that you're more than just friends to me...Your family.
...even if you would kill eachother over some food.