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[thunderdrop]

It's been a hellishly long month and I can't even begin to express how relieved I am to be off campus and away from people. Well, maybe I can, it just may take quite a bit of ranting...

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[tabula_rasa_b]

As you know, we're both on the same page when it comes to this stuff. It's funny how much "An interaction that spanned little over a month, with only a week or so of physical contact even, doesn't seem like it should have so long lasting, residual consequences." and "There was an immense amount of respect and amazement produced in me by her. I recall the distinct impression of feeling myself grow a little more every time we spoke, of falling a little more with every piece of information she shared with me, her image becoming increasingly more beautiful in my minds eye." have meant to me personally. I can't say it will get 100% better any time soon. It won't. It hurts every second, it's in your dreams, it squeezes into places of your mind it shouldn't etc. But if you think about it, there's a certain beauty behind it. Even the pain. It's who we are. We feel. It might not be healthy for you to let yourself dwell on these thoughts, but who the hell cares? You have to do what you have to do in order to get over this. It might take longer for people like us, but it will happen someday. Don't let people dismiss your pain, and don't let yourself dismiss it either. I love you, and it will be okay.