Sep 11, 2005 12:24
I think for the past week and a half I have been throwing my hands up and rebelling against the things I know I am supposed to be doing. Like I have been way out of control eating nonstop, drinking, spending a lot of money, etc. I finally stopped and thought about what I was doing, and had a big wtf is wrong with me.. usually I stay on top of this stuff and behave rather well. So I figured out that no matter how much I try to stay in charge of my own life, I hate it when things happen that affect me that I am powerless to change or control. One or two things, I can tolerate and not lose control over- but this batch lately has been too much and I just kind of gave up trying to do the right thing all the time. But, I realized I can't be this way- I have a little girl depending on me, and if I spend all my money we'll starve, and if I don't take care of myself the way I'm supposed to, she'll have to grwo up like I did with parents that always have suck ass health. So, Lyra, thanks a lot for making me drink this today.. you ready for this? I'm back on the health bandwagon again. Today's joie de vivre is a tasty little concoction called Estriol (phytoestrogens and rice protein powder and vitamins) mixed with supergreens powder, mixed with acidophilus powder all stirred up in organic milk. It tastes like grassy chalk, is a delightful yellow-green color, and has the texture of gritty silt suspended in milk. Yum!! I'm loving it, loving it!