okay this was a hard story for me to tell, so if you're gonna say anything, be nice.
~~Fear of Acceptance~~
The bad times have come and gone,
the good leave their traces as well.
Growing up, there are so many changes-
what’s to come - you never can tell.
- - -
As a toddler, she was rough;
crawling, then walking-
then racing around,
this little girl had to prove she was tough,
she'd get back up when shehit the ground.
- - -
Commonly shunned by the girls at play time,
rarely accepted by most of the boys-
at least she’d had her twin sister to play with,
and she’d still had most of her toys.
- - -
In elementary they called her a tomboy-
and for a while,
that was okay.
But as she continued getting older,
well, then- they called her gay.
- - -
In middle school it was all a game,
they taunted her for fun
It wasn’t just the bullies,
but almost everyone.
- - -
Yeah, she’d still had friends,
though sometimes they’d poke too,
the teasingwouldn't go away
“Sure we’re girls,
but not like you.”
- - -
To some, she was ‘that skater chick’
Popular kids called her ‘The dyke’.
Most didn’t know it’s meaning,
but if the cool kids said it,
then it was right.
- - -
This girl felt lost and quite upset
though her so called “friends” were still around.
Then she’d had to move to another state;
set foot in an unfamiliar town.
- - -
She spent that summer in California,
with some of her family - so it was cool.
But vacation would soon be ending, and she knew that then-
she’d have to go to school.
- - -
When highschool came, things started changing.
Most teens still laughed at her, no doubt.
But she’d met a girl named Keileigh,
and what this girl called herself, was “out.”
- - -
This girl was fun, and full of life;
she had a somewhat boyish side.
She chewed with her mouth open,
and played football with pride.
- - -
She was the first to reach out to this lost new girl
at the school where they were taught-
and the girl found out that she could feel “cool”
around these friends that Keileigh brought.
- - -
This friendly chick from the girl’s new town
would hang around her more and more,
together they’d had the best of times,
timesthey'd never had before.
- - -
It didn’t take long for her to realize
that they were more than just close buds-
“Chicks like you and me,” said Keils,
“we’re not just girls, we’re studs.”
- - -
This young teen liked the sound of that,
she knew she wasn’t just a girl.
She never felt like one, in fact,
so she thought she’d give that name a whirl.
- - -
One day they were having movie night,
laughing and having fun.
Keileigh started a pillow fight-
that was when it had all begun.
- - -
That newfound stud, lying on Keil’s bed
laughed as she was getting beat,
then threw her hands up over her head,
raising them in defeat.
- - -
Together that night, they shared a kiss
and from then on she knew
that what she had feared for the longest time
was absolutely true.
- - -
“There’s nothing wrong with it, you know,” Keils said.
“liking girls instead of guys...”
It hit her at that moment-
all her life, she’d been fed lies.
- - -
She laid side by side with Keileigh,
feeling whispers in her ear
and knew that there could be nothing wrong
with what society called being ‘queer’.
- - -
It took time to gain people’s acceptance,
some shut her out, some pulled her close.
For a while it was awful,
‘cause thatwas what she’d wanted most.
- - -
Eventually her peers got used to it,
and being gay seemed quite alright.
but still she knew something was off,
it often kept her up at night.
- - -
Now known by most as a lesbian,
it was better than it had been.
She liked that she could be with girls
and dress an awful lot like men.
- - -
She enjoyed and loved her women,
but there were things she did not like.
Her lovers loved her as a woman too,
and this, to her - did not seem right.
- - -
All she ever really wanted
was to be one of the guys,
but she was always rejected-
no matter how she tried.
- - -
This girl won’t forget how she was condemned-
time and time again.
She’d takencrap for months on end
ever since she came out as a lesbian..
- - -
It wasn’t meant as a lie, but it also wasn’t right-
she doesn’t wanna go through that again-
‘cause the end won’t be in sight.
- - -
She’s quite afraid to tell her kin
that she really is a boy,
that she wants to look the way she feels-
to be a man would bring her joy.
- - -
No, she really ain’t much of a girl at all -
she’s a boy - though kind of small;
he’s a boy at heart and in his soul-
he’s just in the wrong body, that’s all.
- - -
He knows what he wants, but he’s a little scared-
though if you look real close you’ll see,
He’s just the same boy that he’s always been;
yes - that little boy is me.
The bad times have come and gone,
the good leave their traces as well.
Growing up, there are so many changes-
what’s to come - you never can tell.
- - -
As a toddler, she was rough;
crawling, then walking-
then racing around,
this little girl had to prove she was tough,
she'd get back up when shehit the ground.
- - -
Commonly shunned by the girls at play time,
rarely accepted by most of the boys-
at least she’d had her twin sister to play with,
and she’d still had most of her toys.
- - -
In elementary they called her a tomboy-
and for a while,
that was okay.
But as she continued getting older,
well, then- they called her gay.
- - -
In middle school it was all a game,
they taunted her for fun
It wasn’t just the bullies,
but almost everyone.
- - -
Yeah, she’d still had friends,
though sometimes they’d poke too,
the teasingwouldn't go away
“Sure we’re girls,
but not like you.”
- - -
To some, she was ‘that skater chick’
Popular kids called her ‘The dyke’.
Most didn’t know it’s meaning,
but if the cool kids said it,
then it was right.
- - -
This girl felt lost and quite upset
though her so called “friends” were still around.
Then she’d had to move to another state;
set foot in an unfamiliar town.
- - -
She spent that summer in California,
with some of her family - so it was cool.
But vacation would soon be ending, and she knew that then-
she’d have to go to school.
- - -
When highschool came, things started changing.
Most teens still laughed at her, no doubt.
But she’d met a girl named Keileigh,
and what this girl called herself, was “out.”
- - -
This girl was fun, and full of life;
she had a somewhat boyish side.
She chewed with her mouth open,
and played football with pride.
- - -
She was the first to reach out to this lost new girl
at the school where they were taught-
and the girl found out that she could feel “cool”
around these friends that Keileigh brought.
- - -
This friendly chick from the girl’s new town
would hang around her more and more,
together they’d had the best of times,
timesthey'd never had before.
- - -
It didn’t take long for her to realize
that they were more than just close buds-
“Chicks like you and me,” said Keils,
“we’re not just girls, we’re studs.”
- - -
This young teen liked the sound of that,
she knew she wasn’t just a girl.
She never felt like one, in fact,
so she thought she’d give that name a whirl.
- - -
One day they were having movie night,
laughing and having fun.
Keileigh started a pillow fight-
that was when it had all begun.
- - -
That newfound stud, lying on Keil’s bed
laughed as she was getting beat,
then threw her hands up over her head,
raising them in defeat.
- - -
Together that night, they shared a kiss
and from then on she knew
that what she had feared for the longest time
was absolutely true.
- - -
“There’s nothing wrong with it, you know,” Keils said.
“liking girls instead of guys...”
It hit her at that moment-
all her life, she’d been fed lies.
- - -
She laid side by side with Keileigh,
feeling whispers in her ear
and knew that there could be nothing wrong
with what society called being ‘queer’.
- - -
It took time to gain people’s acceptance,
some shut her out, some pulled her close.
For a while it was awful,
‘cause thatwas what she’d wanted most.
- - -
Eventually her peers got used to it,
and being gay seemed quite alright.
but still she knew something was off,
it often kept her up at night.
- - -
Now known by most as a lesbian,
it was better than it had been.
She liked that she could be with girls
and dress an awful lot like men.
- - -
She enjoyed and loved her women,
but there were things she did not like.
Her lovers loved her as a woman too,
and this, to her - did not seem right.
- - -
All she ever really wanted
was to be one of the guys,
but she was always rejected-
no matter how she tried.
- - -
This girl won’t forget how she was condemned-
time and time again.
She’d takencrap for months on end
ever since she came out as a lesbian..
- - -
It wasn’t meant as a lie, but it also wasn’t right-
she doesn’t wanna go through that again-
‘cause the end won’t be in sight.
- - -
She’s quite afraid to tell her kin
that she really is a boy,
that she wants to look the way she feels-
to be a man would bring her joy.
- - -
No, she really ain’t much of a girl at all -
she’s a boy - though kind of small;
he’s a boy at heart and in his soul-
he’s just in the wrong body, that’s all.
- - -
He knows what he wants, but he’s a little scared-
though if you look real close you’ll see,
He’s just the same boy that he’s always been;
yes - that little boy is me.