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May 20, 2005 21:38

I have determined that I am one of "those girls." you know, the young version of one of "those women" who can't do anything without her husband or at least, the consent of her husband. She can't do anything for herself unless her family benefits in some way. So this is me- Sam is out of town for the weekend and I had no idea what to do with myself. Seriously, for the first couple of hours there, i was lost. It was a sad sad feeling. What's even sadder is that I really miss him. I'm not even angry at myself for being so dependent. hehe, confession- I've sort of kind of reverted back to my old ways of flirting with every guy in sight. It feels so good to do that again. It's not that I mean anything by it, it's just my natural state- ever since I was in 6th grade, even though I was fat. I love having a boyfriend but I heart single miriam.

Anyway, after my two hour stint of desperation, I found my friend Wolffy (charlie wolff) and went to see mary's belly dancing performance even though she told me not to go. It was wicked fun. I htink i may decide to learn how to belly dance. It's just so cool and really teaches you how to communicate with your body. I really think that with that communication comes a deep appreciation and love. I could use that.

After the dance performance I found Ace (sam's best friend at school) and we hung out. I heart ace. I guess you could say he's my new danny. So comforting AND, he loves F*R*I*EI*N*D*S. We quote it all the time. He's also wicked snuggly though he keeps his distance because he knows how sam can be. However, Sam is out of town so he made me feel better about feeling like such a loser for being dependent.

One class tomorrow!! YESSSS!! Just history, which I dominate if I do say so myself. My teacher really likes me because she knows I'm a feminist and she hearts that. I also have some really strong opinions on segregation and how it still exists. People just don't seem to be able to realize that. It's especially apparent through Atlanta and the neighborhood NAHS is in...y'all know what I"m talking about.

Hannah and my mom are coming up next weekend!!!! I"m sooo excited! They can meet all my friends and really see how gorgeous it is up here. I miss my family so much. I feel so homeless sometimes. Another perk of the weekend, we're going to go to bestbuy to pick out my birthday--A new digital camera. I have a $300 dollar limit. parents are splitting it so it's really only a 150 limit. I just get it twice. hehe. Any suggestions? I really want this Fuji Finepix camera that has 4.0 mp and a really big zoom and manual/automatic focus so I can take really nice pictures. mmmm. It's also big, which I like. It's not flimsy and feels substantial. One of my friends at camp had one and it took really nice pictures.

so, i'm gonna run. ihave some history reading to do. Congrats my dudes in the Atl. So exciting that it's your last day!!! '06!!!
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