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Well i guess ill start writing in this thing again. at least what i feel lke writing. I broke up with Aaron 2 days ago. Its hard, real hard, but im getting through it. Im starting to really get the picture of how much of a liar he is and what a jerk he still is. But whatever. I thought he was the one for me, but i guess he proved me wrong. Anyways....went to work today, it sucked. too many people and i felt like shit. I need to start eating again, i hate that i do that when im pissed/sick/depressed. So after work i did some little errands and then back home to rest. Then around 10:30 Jay called and so i met him,chris,mark,chad,candie, and 2 other guys and another girl at Slick Willies. It was weird me being there, even more weirder bc the "table" the me and aaron used to go to all the time was not being used when every other table on earth was. So it kinds freaked me out. But it was good seein Jay again, he looks alot different now. I was mostly outa it the whole time but had some interesting convos w/people "so remember when i looked in the rear view mirror?" haha chris is too funny. So after we hung out there for a while i took Jay home since he was rideless. Talked to him for a while and then left to go home. So now its like 1:53 and im about to go to sleep. Im really hurt. It feels like im broken inside and i cant do anything about it. I still love him, i always will, but things have changed. I just cant get over all the stuff, andi feel like crying all the freakin time now. Butg im gonna get through this, i have no choice. And Heather(his ex) is not physco bitch like Aaron made her out to be. we still text message each other after the other night and i guess she will decide if she can put up being friends with aaron. even though i dont see how it can work since one person wants more than the other one. o well. thats their business and drama. im off to new and better things in life. Time to go back to my old self i guess. Ok im out.
-Ashley
-Ashley