ukulele town
Yesterday I bought a ukulele. It's got a beautiful sound. Rich showed me how to tune it using the internet (I'm musically deficient) and I taught myself a few chords. I've decided on 'Sugar Sugar' as the first song I will learn. It's the perfect instrument, soft & sweet & adorable.
Also, because I feel extremely bloated & irritable from not bleeding for two months, I'm going to try to induce a period using yarrow tonight.
Saturday night, 3 am, completely sober. My bedroom window sticks a bit, so I reach under it to pull it all the way up. A piece of wood sticks me and I pull my arm away. There is BLOOD EVERYWHERE! The actual cut is like 1.5 cm long and not very deep and I am in shock. I have never seen this much blood come out of me at once. Also, since I was 13 and saw stigmata, bleeding from my wrists has been one of the most terrifying things I could imagine. I thought my tree star tattoo would look great on my wrist but couldn't bring myself to have needles there.
I find it extremely liberating to experience a dreaded situation & come out okay on the other side. My other greatest fear is rejection; maybe I should throw myself at someone in either a platonic or romantic way and see how bad rejection actually isn't?
Also, because I feel extremely bloated & irritable from not bleeding for two months, I'm going to try to induce a period using yarrow tonight.
Saturday night, 3 am, completely sober. My bedroom window sticks a bit, so I reach under it to pull it all the way up. A piece of wood sticks me and I pull my arm away. There is BLOOD EVERYWHERE! The actual cut is like 1.5 cm long and not very deep and I am in shock. I have never seen this much blood come out of me at once. Also, since I was 13 and saw stigmata, bleeding from my wrists has been one of the most terrifying things I could imagine. I thought my tree star tattoo would look great on my wrist but couldn't bring myself to have needles there.
I find it extremely liberating to experience a dreaded situation & come out okay on the other side. My other greatest fear is rejection; maybe I should throw myself at someone in either a platonic or romantic way and see how bad rejection actually isn't?