Goodbye San Diego...
I'm sitting and typing this when I really should be ether packing or sleeping right now because I'll be leaving early-ish tomorrow morning. Oh twell. I've had a really nice mini-vacation here in San Diego and am so grateful for my friend for inviting me and my roommate down here and letting us surf his couch. It's also been a nice distraction from the plethora of family problems and school stress that I have been facing and will face once I'm back in Nanaimo (bio exam) and then in Toronto.
I really don't know what to do with my family at home. My dad emails me little updates, but they're never pleasant and my mom is in her own world wasting away. It's all so depressing that I haven't wanted to give much thought to it... well, until just now. I've managed to push it all aside by conveniently racking up debts on my credit card, spending away for things that will make me feel pretty, and on small gifts for brothers and friends. I don't even know the state of my finances, but they can't be good. I'm sad that there's really nothing I can do for my parents' divorce and am just a bystander, frozen at the wreckage in front of me.
I know that I have such amazing friends (new nursing friends and old dear friends) who are there to comfort me and talk with me through it all, AND an amazing professor who has made such a difference in my life and not only in the last term... but there's still a overall sense of loneliness. I miss the city, and I miss Toronto. In spite of all the family-drama, I'll be so glad to be home and am awaiting the day that I can hug Nikko and just not. let. go.
Sorry for the sad post... it'll be a long (sleet-filled) week when I get back to Nanaimo. On a happier note, the fall finale of Glee was amazing! I can not wait until the next part of the season is out in April.
I really don't know what to do with my family at home. My dad emails me little updates, but they're never pleasant and my mom is in her own world wasting away. It's all so depressing that I haven't wanted to give much thought to it... well, until just now. I've managed to push it all aside by conveniently racking up debts on my credit card, spending away for things that will make me feel pretty, and on small gifts for brothers and friends. I don't even know the state of my finances, but they can't be good. I'm sad that there's really nothing I can do for my parents' divorce and am just a bystander, frozen at the wreckage in front of me.
I know that I have such amazing friends (new nursing friends and old dear friends) who are there to comfort me and talk with me through it all, AND an amazing professor who has made such a difference in my life and not only in the last term... but there's still a overall sense of loneliness. I miss the city, and I miss Toronto. In spite of all the family-drama, I'll be so glad to be home and am awaiting the day that I can hug Nikko and just not. let. go.
Sorry for the sad post... it'll be a long (sleet-filled) week when I get back to Nanaimo. On a happier note, the fall finale of Glee was amazing! I can not wait until the next part of the season is out in April.