Confessions of a 22 year old
It's 2am and I still can't sleep.
My life as of this moment:
I have graduated from MSU with a 2.7
whoops
I am one of a very small group of people to be accepting into Siemens Project Management Leadership Development Program. PMLDP.
I'm moving to Atlanta in a week.
I'm making 20 thousand more than I thought I would.
In 6 months I'm going to buy a 2010 Camaro.
Me. My own Camaro.
I haven't dated anyone for months.
I stopping having sex.
I just don't want to play like I enjoy sleeping around, or that I don't wish I was in a relationship.
Not a day goes by when I don't think of you.
I didn't see that you had commented on my journal till right now.
I know you called and hung up.
I wish you would call and stay on the phone.
If we still feel like this, after all of this time, don't you think that it's time we just try it? What's the harm in trying it? I don't care if you're in California and I'm in Atlanta.
I don't even know how you feel though, so I guess this is all just juxtaposition on my part.
I'm not even sure if juxtaposition is the correct word there. But I spelled it right on the first try so I kept it.
I'm more at peace/restless than I have been in my entire life. I've been waiting for this moment since I was 17. I can't even imagine myself then. I was so different, I've grown up so much. And yet some parts are still the same.
I've learned to stop being so bitter, to stop being so mad and jaded about everything. It's not worth it, nothing is worth that.
I just signed onto Yahoo because I was hoping you had said something.
Even though I told you I was deleting it.
Truth: I have no idea how to delete a screenname.
I still have your visor. It's the only thing I kept when I moved. There's no way I could get rid of it.
I'm closer to my mom than I have ever been. We spend every day together.
She's more proud of me than even I know.
My 8 ball Yoda says use the force.
Way to be useless Yoda.
I still don't know what the first thing I'm going to buy when I get my bonus check will be.
Honestly? I'm to nervous haha.
I've never had this much money before.
Did you ever imagine, after all these years, that it would end up like this.
I think Will Smith is right that you can never view breaking up as an option in a relationship. Because you're going to want to at some point.
I regret letting you go.
I do not regret however the things I said to you the last time.
You kind of deserved it.
I'm leaving behind everything that was my life for the last 4 and a half years.
I'm moving to a town where I don't know a single person.
I'm so excited.
I'm really hungry right now.
My mom today asked me if I jerked off in the shower and that's why it takes me so long to shower.
I thought that was slightly inappropriate.
I just googled myself.
I am a doctor and a very ugly man who lives in orlando, FL.
I don't think I have anything else.
I'm so grateful for where I am.
But part of me still wishes, still holds out for you.
As pitiful and silly that is, it's the truth.
And so I say to you, new world, hello. And to the old I bid adieu. For I walk towards the sun that rises in the east, rather then that which sets in the west. I look not to the day that is gone, rather to the day that is coming. In search of a greater hope, a better prospect, and a stronger truth.
Everyone has their own song. This is yours.
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My life as of this moment:
I have graduated from MSU with a 2.7
whoops
I am one of a very small group of people to be accepting into Siemens Project Management Leadership Development Program. PMLDP.
I'm moving to Atlanta in a week.
I'm making 20 thousand more than I thought I would.
In 6 months I'm going to buy a 2010 Camaro.
Me. My own Camaro.
I haven't dated anyone for months.
I stopping having sex.
I just don't want to play like I enjoy sleeping around, or that I don't wish I was in a relationship.
Not a day goes by when I don't think of you.
I didn't see that you had commented on my journal till right now.
I know you called and hung up.
I wish you would call and stay on the phone.
If we still feel like this, after all of this time, don't you think that it's time we just try it? What's the harm in trying it? I don't care if you're in California and I'm in Atlanta.
I don't even know how you feel though, so I guess this is all just juxtaposition on my part.
I'm not even sure if juxtaposition is the correct word there. But I spelled it right on the first try so I kept it.
I'm more at peace/restless than I have been in my entire life. I've been waiting for this moment since I was 17. I can't even imagine myself then. I was so different, I've grown up so much. And yet some parts are still the same.
I've learned to stop being so bitter, to stop being so mad and jaded about everything. It's not worth it, nothing is worth that.
I just signed onto Yahoo because I was hoping you had said something.
Even though I told you I was deleting it.
Truth: I have no idea how to delete a screenname.
I still have your visor. It's the only thing I kept when I moved. There's no way I could get rid of it.
I'm closer to my mom than I have ever been. We spend every day together.
She's more proud of me than even I know.
My 8 ball Yoda says use the force.
Way to be useless Yoda.
I still don't know what the first thing I'm going to buy when I get my bonus check will be.
Honestly? I'm to nervous haha.
I've never had this much money before.
Did you ever imagine, after all these years, that it would end up like this.
I think Will Smith is right that you can never view breaking up as an option in a relationship. Because you're going to want to at some point.
I regret letting you go.
I do not regret however the things I said to you the last time.
You kind of deserved it.
I'm leaving behind everything that was my life for the last 4 and a half years.
I'm moving to a town where I don't know a single person.
I'm so excited.
I'm really hungry right now.
My mom today asked me if I jerked off in the shower and that's why it takes me so long to shower.
I thought that was slightly inappropriate.
I just googled myself.
I am a doctor and a very ugly man who lives in orlando, FL.
I don't think I have anything else.
I'm so grateful for where I am.
But part of me still wishes, still holds out for you.
As pitiful and silly that is, it's the truth.
And so I say to you, new world, hello. And to the old I bid adieu. For I walk towards the sun that rises in the east, rather then that which sets in the west. I look not to the day that is gone, rather to the day that is coming. In search of a greater hope, a better prospect, and a stronger truth.
Everyone has their own song. This is yours.
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Now playing: Regina Spektor - Samson
via FoxyTunes
This came on right after
----------------
Now playing: Imogen Heap - Hide and Seek
via FoxyTunes