Ok...
Now the monster is awake
It won't rest until there's nothing left
Maybe ever and anon
I forget about the pain
Someone bending light comes along
and flowers lean towards the sun
Some people fall in love and touch the sky
Some people fall in love and find Quicksand
I hover somewhere in between...I swear...
I can't make up my mind.
Why do you HAVE to ruin everything?
My bubble has been burst plenty of times, but man, I thought I would never even have a bubble again.
Give a girl a break. Well I guess you did, you waited to blindside me with your deviant ways.
Fuck. I could very well be overreacting, but could I be any more wounded from this?
I can't get hurt or ruined again. Maybe I already am ruined.
&Maybe you do have every right to ruin my happiness. I see where you're coming from, but I just don't understand why every girl in my generation has to be so goddamn selfish.
Then again, maybe I have what I want, and I'm just questioning the unmentionable.
Or maybe I'm just sick of being every ones 'BeSt fRiEnD' right now.
There's no such fucking thing. I guess I got lost in an unrealistic world for a second is all.
I was happy for a minute.
&I do believe that happiness is not a destination; this came to me.
I am truly enjoying it. I'm just sick of being pushed around like a little rag doll.
Give me to good will.
I didn't go to school today, for no apparent reason. I think I'm going through a funk. &I sure as hell need to get out of it. I need to lose this weight. Figuratively and literally speaking.
I think I only have two friends I can trust to never scar me. &I'm alright with that. They are not who you think they are.
I wish I could just say GOODBYE to this current life, but then I'll have them coming back saying fake "I miss yous" and "what happened?!?!".
Hopefully I'll get out of this dramatic teenage angst swarm I live in.
I'm sick of thinking this way. I'm sick of it having to be this way, for me having to feel this way.
I had a dream that I met my soul mate. His name was Chris. &Then I woke up to this shit-filled reality.
Who am I kidding? How could I promise to move out of state with someone who continues stabbing me in the back. Sabotaging every move I make. Even if it isn't purposely. Even if it's for selfish reasons. I can't take this hell and I'm not going to let myself give in to this bullshit.
I'll get over it, I always do.
It won't rest until there's nothing left
Maybe ever and anon
I forget about the pain
Someone bending light comes along
and flowers lean towards the sun
Some people fall in love and touch the sky
Some people fall in love and find Quicksand
I hover somewhere in between...I swear...
I can't make up my mind.
Why do you HAVE to ruin everything?
My bubble has been burst plenty of times, but man, I thought I would never even have a bubble again.
Give a girl a break. Well I guess you did, you waited to blindside me with your deviant ways.
Fuck. I could very well be overreacting, but could I be any more wounded from this?
I can't get hurt or ruined again. Maybe I already am ruined.
&Maybe you do have every right to ruin my happiness. I see where you're coming from, but I just don't understand why every girl in my generation has to be so goddamn selfish.
Then again, maybe I have what I want, and I'm just questioning the unmentionable.
Or maybe I'm just sick of being every ones 'BeSt fRiEnD' right now.
There's no such fucking thing. I guess I got lost in an unrealistic world for a second is all.
I was happy for a minute.
&I do believe that happiness is not a destination; this came to me.
I am truly enjoying it. I'm just sick of being pushed around like a little rag doll.
Give me to good will.
I didn't go to school today, for no apparent reason. I think I'm going through a funk. &I sure as hell need to get out of it. I need to lose this weight. Figuratively and literally speaking.
I think I only have two friends I can trust to never scar me. &I'm alright with that. They are not who you think they are.
I wish I could just say GOODBYE to this current life, but then I'll have them coming back saying fake "I miss yous" and "what happened?!?!".
Hopefully I'll get out of this dramatic teenage angst swarm I live in.
I'm sick of thinking this way. I'm sick of it having to be this way, for me having to feel this way.
I had a dream that I met my soul mate. His name was Chris. &Then I woke up to this shit-filled reality.
Who am I kidding? How could I promise to move out of state with someone who continues stabbing me in the back. Sabotaging every move I make. Even if it isn't purposely. Even if it's for selfish reasons. I can't take this hell and I'm not going to let myself give in to this bullshit.
I'll get over it, I always do.