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Thats it, its time, I felt it coming, I knew there would be no stoping it. Im crazy, going insane. Im breaking down i cant take any more shit from these people. I have to get out i have to break free im loosing my mind. You cant stop it, i have no choice. I want to get away. these thoughts running through my mind, I want to get away from all this. I want to watch my blood hit the ground. OMG what a rush. take my away far far away. I lay there so still, i can hear it hit whats on top of me. I WANT IT TO END, MAKE THIS END, TAKE THIS PAIN FROM ME. I WILL END THIS STRESS........FOREVER.
~*~ The Reason ~*~
The reason i wrote all of this is because today i broke a coffee pot, a god damn coffee pot and started to cry. I know this may not seem to be a big deal to alot of people, and normally it wouldnt be for me but im having a break down and i cant stop crying as much as i want to i cant. Im stressed out or something but everthing is juss depressing me, and if i dont write anything down then i will juss keep getting more and more depressed, and im whats known to be as a cutter even though i havn't for a while im still "high risk" or some shit like that.
~*~ DISTURBED ~*~
"Remember"
Sensation washes over me
I can't describe it
Pain I felt so long ago
I don't remember
Tear a hole so I can see
My devastation
Feelings from so long ago
I don't remember
Holding on, to let them know
What's given to me
To hide behind
The mask this time
And try to believe
Blind your eyes to what you see
You can't embrace it
Leave it well enough alone
And don't remember
Cut your pride and watch it bleed
You can't deny it
Pain you know you can't ignore
I don't remember
Holding on, to let them know
What's given to me
To hide behind
The mask this time
And try to believe
If I can
Remember
To know this will
Conquer me
If I can
Just walk alone
And try to escape
Into me
[whispering:]
Sensation washes over me
I can't describe it
Pain I felt so long ago
I don't remember
Im just holding on, to let them know
What's given to me, given to me
To hide behind
The mask this time
And try to believe
If I can
Remember
To know this will
Conquer me
If I can
Just walk alone
And try to escape
Into me
into me
into me
~*~ DISTURBED ~*~
"Numb"
Bleeding now I'm
Crying out I'm
Falling down and I'm
Feeling nothing like
Laughing now I'm
Stopping now I'm
Reaching out and I'm
Feeling nothing
Yeah, you have created a rift within me
Now there have been several complications
That have left me feeling nothing
I might say, you were wrong to take it from me
Left me feeling nothing
Crawling now I'm
Beaten down I'm
Tortured now and I'm
Feeling nothing like
Hunting now I'm
Stalking now I'm
Reaching out and I'm
Killing nothing
I can feel you ripping and tearing
Feeding and growing inside of me
I want this, more than you know
I need this, give it back to me
~*~ The Reason ~*~
The reason i wrote all of this is because today i broke a coffee pot, a god damn coffee pot and started to cry. I know this may not seem to be a big deal to alot of people, and normally it wouldnt be for me but im having a break down and i cant stop crying as much as i want to i cant. Im stressed out or something but everthing is juss depressing me, and if i dont write anything down then i will juss keep getting more and more depressed, and im whats known to be as a cutter even though i havn't for a while im still "high risk" or some shit like that.
~*~ DISTURBED ~*~
"Remember"
Sensation washes over me
I can't describe it
Pain I felt so long ago
I don't remember
Tear a hole so I can see
My devastation
Feelings from so long ago
I don't remember
Holding on, to let them know
What's given to me
To hide behind
The mask this time
And try to believe
Blind your eyes to what you see
You can't embrace it
Leave it well enough alone
And don't remember
Cut your pride and watch it bleed
You can't deny it
Pain you know you can't ignore
I don't remember
Holding on, to let them know
What's given to me
To hide behind
The mask this time
And try to believe
If I can
Remember
To know this will
Conquer me
If I can
Just walk alone
And try to escape
Into me
[whispering:]
Sensation washes over me
I can't describe it
Pain I felt so long ago
I don't remember
Im just holding on, to let them know
What's given to me, given to me
To hide behind
The mask this time
And try to believe
If I can
Remember
To know this will
Conquer me
If I can
Just walk alone
And try to escape
Into me
into me
into me
~*~ DISTURBED ~*~
"Numb"
Bleeding now I'm
Crying out I'm
Falling down and I'm
Feeling nothing like
Laughing now I'm
Stopping now I'm
Reaching out and I'm
Feeling nothing
Yeah, you have created a rift within me
Now there have been several complications
That have left me feeling nothing
I might say, you were wrong to take it from me
Left me feeling nothing
Crawling now I'm
Beaten down I'm
Tortured now and I'm
Feeling nothing like
Hunting now I'm
Stalking now I'm
Reaching out and I'm
Killing nothing
I can feel you ripping and tearing
Feeding and growing inside of me
I want this, more than you know
I need this, give it back to me