fuck life...
So my new theory is just give up on life. Life sucks and I suck. I know, Jess, you will read this; and leave comments saying how goth I am for this, but OH WELL! Lately, everyone has been so down and everything, and it makes me sad and angry! Before, I experienced a mental breakdown (not the first). I thought I was so happy, but I was oh so wrong. I have been feeling so lonely and depressed, especially the last two days. I have been so bored (I really do need a hobby). Let's talk about this breakdown though- so, I was in my dark room. By the way, I have been pacing alot,late at night. Anyway, I hopped up from my bed and started dancing in circles. Ya know when you were little and you would like just twirl around, and everything was so simple? I still do that just to get away from all my "teenage" troubles. God, It really sucks growing up, and how I long to be a kid again! I would do anything! As I was spinning around, listening to some awesome jams, I started falling, and yeah it was funny. It was very exciting; and it made me laugh out loud. I was seriously crying- that's how happy I was. Then I got so dizzy, and bumped into my dresser and fell. It was a rough fall; and I banged my head pretty badly, but it was well worth it. I also go into the laundry room, and bash my head with my fist; YES! I have gone insane. You're finally catching on. Anyway, I need something. I need...chocolate and something else, but I'm not quite sure yet. I think I'd rather be all by myself again. I miss getting in touch with the inner me. Now that I have found someone, I'm feeling more alone than I ever have before... It's true, and people are really bugging me out these days. Girls are really shady these days, but I'm not. L I F E I S F U C K E D U P!!!!!!!!!