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Today I went to eat good italian food in nyc. Second time being in nyc in one week...pretty sweeeeet. My grandma sliced off a piece of her finger while closing a window, cute eh? She has no nail on her pointer finger. It just popped off. The thought makes me shaky. Anyway, after dinner, we went to JFK to drop lisa off cause she be going to florida. LUCKY! I think I am going to florida in february and april which is something to look forward to. Earlier today, my mom said I need to go to anger management which was not toally shocking news for me. I realize I have a a problem, and I wanna fix that. I take my anger out on things like hair ironers and allan and it's just not right. I hate that i'm like this. I hate that i have to physically hurt other people in order to be happy. It just seems stupid. My straightener snapped in half ughh. I feel like a little girl throwing these hissy fits. Over the summer, I freaking kicked in a wall and left a hole. I had to put one of those full size mirrors over it so my dad wouldnt think i'm nutzo. I need help and I hope I can get it really soon. I don't know where all this anger comes from because a certain someone makes me really happy. It's my own fault for acting this way. I think I like to test people's limits or some shit. Allan is such a nice guy and he doesnt deserve to be treated like a bitch. Nobody deserves it. I haven't been true to myself or people I like lately. I guess I am apologizing for that. That's it for now. The moral of the story...be truthful to yourself and try to enjoy life and make the best of it as corny as that may sound.