Just Let Go...
I didn't go to school today. I woke up at 7:06 so I just told my mom I had a migraine and she told me to stay home. I just didn't want to be late because if I'm late to school one more time, I'll get a detention and I'm too lazy to serve a detention so I wouldn't go (or I'd sleep-in or I'd forget about it) and I'd get an in school suspension. Dandy. Friday is junior cut day. I haven't decided if I'm going to cut or not. I don't really want to since I missed today and tomorrow's a half day. Maybe I'll ditch a day next week since it's a full week of school. I'M EVIL.
I've written eight poems in three days. Score four for me. My friend Booby (who's real name is Brian) has been really depressed lately and he did the no-no yesterday. The "no no" is cutting. I'm worried about him. :( He never tells me what's wrong, either. He pushes his problems aside and always asks me if I'm okay. blech.
Saturday, I went to Jackie's party for a while with Nate. 'Twas okay. Kathryn got soooo drunk and was pretty much laying in her own puke. I hate always taking care of her when she's drunk. :( She's always stumbling over everything and she can't even sit up, so she always has to lean on me. I bet if I wasn't there, no one would've noticed her puking everywhere. At least I got her to the bathroom after a while. This is why you shouldn't (and I don't) drink. ::sigh:: Nate's cousin Joe picked us up and I talked him into driving Kathryn home because I didn't want to leave her there if no one was going to watch her. I'm so glad she didn't puke in his Mustang. She doesn't remember anything. ::shakes head:: I think she's getting depressed. I'm always surrounding myself with depressed people, which isn't really helping my depression. Oh well...Joe's a hot hillbilly!
Next Saturday, Nate and Shannon are recording for their CD. They invited me to go, but I'm not sure if my parents will let me because they're probably going to go to my grandparents' house and I'll have to go with them because I didn't go to Olivia's party last weekend. Maybe I could go to Kathryn's house and then just take a bus to Shannon's house or something. First, I must find out where this guy lives (I've never met him, just talked to him. Yes, Shannon is a GUY) and then ask my parents about it. Grades go in this Friday. blech.
Ohhhh! Sort of funny story: So I'm in the shower on Saturday and I'm shaving and then I notice blood dripping down my leg and I'm like, "WTF!?" I didn't feel myself cut myself or felt any stinging or anything and I couldn't find a cut anywhere on my leg. So where did I cut myself? MY CROTCH! rofl. Nate seemed to enjoy that story. :)
YUMMY.
Lonliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but
its there, and your friends can see it. You
constantly feel alone, and need to do things to
fill your time. Your afraid to tell people
this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad
way, and you think you screwed up everything.
And when you are in love is when you are sad
the most. (Please Vote)
What Emotion Dominates you?
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I've written eight poems in three days. Score four for me. My friend Booby (who's real name is Brian) has been really depressed lately and he did the no-no yesterday. The "no no" is cutting. I'm worried about him. :( He never tells me what's wrong, either. He pushes his problems aside and always asks me if I'm okay. blech.
Saturday, I went to Jackie's party for a while with Nate. 'Twas okay. Kathryn got soooo drunk and was pretty much laying in her own puke. I hate always taking care of her when she's drunk. :( She's always stumbling over everything and she can't even sit up, so she always has to lean on me. I bet if I wasn't there, no one would've noticed her puking everywhere. At least I got her to the bathroom after a while. This is why you shouldn't (and I don't) drink. ::sigh:: Nate's cousin Joe picked us up and I talked him into driving Kathryn home because I didn't want to leave her there if no one was going to watch her. I'm so glad she didn't puke in his Mustang. She doesn't remember anything. ::shakes head:: I think she's getting depressed. I'm always surrounding myself with depressed people, which isn't really helping my depression. Oh well...Joe's a hot hillbilly!
Next Saturday, Nate and Shannon are recording for their CD. They invited me to go, but I'm not sure if my parents will let me because they're probably going to go to my grandparents' house and I'll have to go with them because I didn't go to Olivia's party last weekend. Maybe I could go to Kathryn's house and then just take a bus to Shannon's house or something. First, I must find out where this guy lives (I've never met him, just talked to him. Yes, Shannon is a GUY) and then ask my parents about it. Grades go in this Friday. blech.
Ohhhh! Sort of funny story: So I'm in the shower on Saturday and I'm shaving and then I notice blood dripping down my leg and I'm like, "WTF!?" I didn't feel myself cut myself or felt any stinging or anything and I couldn't find a cut anywhere on my leg. So where did I cut myself? MY CROTCH! rofl. Nate seemed to enjoy that story. :)
YUMMY.
Lonliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but
its there, and your friends can see it. You
constantly feel alone, and need to do things to
fill your time. Your afraid to tell people
this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad
way, and you think you screwed up everything.
And when you are in love is when you are sad
the most. (Please Vote)
What Emotion Dominates you?
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