Speed
Do you every wish You could freeze time? I do right now. Slow down the seconds so I could whip out this 4 page paper, study for the massively difficult psychology exam, and study for statistics. Both of those classes I have missed crucial lectures. I keep saying my habits from high school haven't changed. I think that this is the reason I took a year off, to avoid failing and slacking, wasting my dad's and my money. At least soon it will just be my money and I wouldn't feel so guilty. Instead, here I am writing here instead of the 2 1/2 pages I have left on my paper. I was hoping just typing continuously might encourage my progress on my paper. We'll see. I've decided from the past three weeks that my habits have changed since high school, they've gotten worse. I guess the comforting thing is I'm not alone here. My entire floor was attempting to do work in the hall until about 1:15 tonight. It was slightly unusual because the people that hang around my room are usually the only ones that stay up until 2-2:30, and then there are us random stragglers that stay up until 4 or just don't sleep. Tonight that is me and Nikki.
Fuck my life. I've decided that is my motto. I've said it about 20 times tonight, probably more actually. Today was my first day training at the Outback. It was actually kind of fun. I've never hostessed before so I found it entertaining. Plus my trainer was kind of crazy, so it helped. I was cut after 2 1/2 hours because it was on the slow side. I was pretty relieved (although wish I made more money lol) especially with the amount that is due tomorrow. a paper a quiz and two tests. awwww shiiit. And how I'm still awake while all of you are stirring to do your many tasks on east coast time, I'm not exactly sure. Especially since I have this cold. Oh yes, I'm sick again, number two in three weeks. I'm a winner. I've decided not to turn the AC on since it will spread my germs.
Here comes the focus streaming through my veins to my fingertips. vibrating in my ears tingling my head. I'm floating home, on euphoria, I swear I'm comin home. My mind and soul are drifting back to the times of feeling good and no worries, good laughs and free loving. I'm going to the ocean to see the sunrise again. You are my east coast love.
this weekend is family weekend. Ankit, my Indian friend asked if my parents were coming. I told him I was in the same situation as he was. He thought I might have a chance since I live in this country, but I don't think he understands how far away the east coast is. You don't until you're 3000 miles away. He is going on a camping trip this weekend for the International Students. They are smart that they hold that on family weekend since they most likely won't have families visiting. I wish they had one for the out of staters too. or at least east coasters. It wouldn't matter though, because I'm working. At least my evenings will have a distraction.
And Saturday I am taking a drive up to Solana Beach to look at an audi, so I will miss the morning activities and seeing the parents arriving. I just have to distract myself for the middle of the day and I'll have the worst one out of the way. Sunday everyone will be leaving in the morning I'm sure, plus I've got my football all day, starting at 10 (I actually love the fact that it starts in the morning instead of at 1, the one time I like PST) Although the Patriots have a bye, so I won't even have my home team to watch, not that it really is shown on the two broadcasts here, unless they're playing someone from the midwest to the west. I really want to see them when they are here in San Diego against the Chargers. It'd be soooo sweet. But I don't think I could guarantee the night off of work, plus that's 54$ I don't have right now. At least I'll see it on the tele. Same with the next week because they're playing the 49ers. Something to look forward to :) (hopefully it won't be like last weekend.. 5 touchdowns to one of the league's worst quarterbacks, oi). As you can tell, I love being able to spend my Sunday's hanging out on the floor watching the games. It reminds me of home. It reminds me of fall, and how fall should be.
|My sister sent me a package today :) When I get it (probably beginning of next week) that will be my version of family weekend.|
Legit request here: I know some of you can't make it to NH for October (sorry kel, but maybe you will?) But if anyone has the chance to take pictures of the leaves this year, please do. And send them to me? Palm trees don't quite have the same fall like effect. I miss the seasons already. You can email them (heather_lawlor@yahoo.com) or even better just send them...
Heather Farley
5505 Montezuma Rd.
mailbox #262
San Diego, CA 92115
Any pictures that is. I tried printing some out but my ink was wrong, and now I've used all my black ink (and have yet to buy more which sucks I just realized I need four copies of this paper.. shiittttt fuck my life). I was able to get about four printed, two of my mom, one of my sisters and I all dolled up, and my favorite picture of Erin and I as partners in beirut (but it came out really dark). My shelves are so bare compared to Chloe's and Naomi's. I was smart enough to bring some pictures with me.. and I have started to fill a collage in a big black frame like Britt showed me before she left. But it's not working so well. I have tons of pictures on my computer of course, but it isn't the same. If I could look at pictures everytime I sat in bed it'd be like I was seeing the people I love every day. Like Kaila said in her comment, not talking to someone for a day makes it feel like years. I have been so busy lately, I haven't been able to make my usual phone calls. And of course as the semester goes on, we all get busier. Be prepared to get some rings this weekend from me. Probably starting Friday (after I sleep forever). And to those of you who didn't get a text from me, or don't have texting, I have a new number (although technically my old phone is still active, I just haven't really checked it that much. Or charged it, so it will probably die and turn off by friday. I should probably pay attention to that so people can get my new number... and I'll have that until December 12th). My new number is (619) 261 3183. It is an iPhone (yay) so it's with At&t / Cingular (sorry for everyone with verizon.) I don't really know how it works for verizon exactly with incoming calls and long distance and all that, but I get 5000 nights and weekends a month, and unlimited text to any provider, and calling long distance is the same as if I were to call local, so I can call people if it makes it easier. I hope it does. I miss your voices... lol.
Ohh my entry has turned monsterous and has taken at least a half hour of my time lol. but I feel like my time is frozen. No worries. I feel good.
I'll hopefully talk to you this weekend. I have some serious updating to do with you people..
Fuck my life. I've decided that is my motto. I've said it about 20 times tonight, probably more actually. Today was my first day training at the Outback. It was actually kind of fun. I've never hostessed before so I found it entertaining. Plus my trainer was kind of crazy, so it helped. I was cut after 2 1/2 hours because it was on the slow side. I was pretty relieved (although wish I made more money lol) especially with the amount that is due tomorrow. a paper a quiz and two tests. awwww shiiit. And how I'm still awake while all of you are stirring to do your many tasks on east coast time, I'm not exactly sure. Especially since I have this cold. Oh yes, I'm sick again, number two in three weeks. I'm a winner. I've decided not to turn the AC on since it will spread my germs.
Here comes the focus streaming through my veins to my fingertips. vibrating in my ears tingling my head. I'm floating home, on euphoria, I swear I'm comin home. My mind and soul are drifting back to the times of feeling good and no worries, good laughs and free loving. I'm going to the ocean to see the sunrise again. You are my east coast love.
this weekend is family weekend. Ankit, my Indian friend asked if my parents were coming. I told him I was in the same situation as he was. He thought I might have a chance since I live in this country, but I don't think he understands how far away the east coast is. You don't until you're 3000 miles away. He is going on a camping trip this weekend for the International Students. They are smart that they hold that on family weekend since they most likely won't have families visiting. I wish they had one for the out of staters too. or at least east coasters. It wouldn't matter though, because I'm working. At least my evenings will have a distraction.
And Saturday I am taking a drive up to Solana Beach to look at an audi, so I will miss the morning activities and seeing the parents arriving. I just have to distract myself for the middle of the day and I'll have the worst one out of the way. Sunday everyone will be leaving in the morning I'm sure, plus I've got my football all day, starting at 10 (I actually love the fact that it starts in the morning instead of at 1, the one time I like PST) Although the Patriots have a bye, so I won't even have my home team to watch, not that it really is shown on the two broadcasts here, unless they're playing someone from the midwest to the west. I really want to see them when they are here in San Diego against the Chargers. It'd be soooo sweet. But I don't think I could guarantee the night off of work, plus that's 54$ I don't have right now. At least I'll see it on the tele. Same with the next week because they're playing the 49ers. Something to look forward to :) (hopefully it won't be like last weekend.. 5 touchdowns to one of the league's worst quarterbacks, oi). As you can tell, I love being able to spend my Sunday's hanging out on the floor watching the games. It reminds me of home. It reminds me of fall, and how fall should be.
|My sister sent me a package today :) When I get it (probably beginning of next week) that will be my version of family weekend.|
Legit request here: I know some of you can't make it to NH for October (sorry kel, but maybe you will?) But if anyone has the chance to take pictures of the leaves this year, please do. And send them to me? Palm trees don't quite have the same fall like effect. I miss the seasons already. You can email them (heather_lawlor@yahoo.com) or even better just send them...
Heather Farley
5505 Montezuma Rd.
mailbox #262
San Diego, CA 92115
Any pictures that is. I tried printing some out but my ink was wrong, and now I've used all my black ink (and have yet to buy more which sucks I just realized I need four copies of this paper.. shiittttt fuck my life). I was able to get about four printed, two of my mom, one of my sisters and I all dolled up, and my favorite picture of Erin and I as partners in beirut (but it came out really dark). My shelves are so bare compared to Chloe's and Naomi's. I was smart enough to bring some pictures with me.. and I have started to fill a collage in a big black frame like Britt showed me before she left. But it's not working so well. I have tons of pictures on my computer of course, but it isn't the same. If I could look at pictures everytime I sat in bed it'd be like I was seeing the people I love every day. Like Kaila said in her comment, not talking to someone for a day makes it feel like years. I have been so busy lately, I haven't been able to make my usual phone calls. And of course as the semester goes on, we all get busier. Be prepared to get some rings this weekend from me. Probably starting Friday (after I sleep forever). And to those of you who didn't get a text from me, or don't have texting, I have a new number (although technically my old phone is still active, I just haven't really checked it that much. Or charged it, so it will probably die and turn off by friday. I should probably pay attention to that so people can get my new number... and I'll have that until December 12th). My new number is (619) 261 3183. It is an iPhone (yay) so it's with At&t / Cingular (sorry for everyone with verizon.) I don't really know how it works for verizon exactly with incoming calls and long distance and all that, but I get 5000 nights and weekends a month, and unlimited text to any provider, and calling long distance is the same as if I were to call local, so I can call people if it makes it easier. I hope it does. I miss your voices... lol.
Ohh my entry has turned monsterous and has taken at least a half hour of my time lol. but I feel like my time is frozen. No worries. I feel good.
I'll hopefully talk to you this weekend. I have some serious updating to do with you people..