022006- "Loneliness"
Everyday I feel lonely at some point. Usually in my house or while watching a movie or play, or reading a story. Sometimes even just in a conversation. Loneliness relates to memories. Things remind me of what once was. Knowing it's now the same anymore gives an empty feeling. Even though I know it's okay and I know I'm not really alone, no one is in this very exact situation. If I thin about it too much, the more alone I feel. I guess I cause the infliction of my own pain sometimes.
"Do you ever feel abandoned?"
"No, but I feel alone sometimes."
"Yeah, I feel alone too."
Even though a conversation is between two people, they're still alone. Each other's company could never make up for the dark, cold emptiness inside.
Loneliness can be so strong; but to take the full effect of it, to feel complete loneliness, I have to stop and think. I have to comprehend an empty bed. The ultimate loneliness is to realize that someone you love and that is so important to you, is gone. It's not that you just lost the relationship of someone. It's that you'll never be able to even see them, feel them, or know they're there, ever again.
"Do you ever feel abandoned?"
"No, but I feel alone sometimes."
"Yeah, I feel alone too."
Even though a conversation is between two people, they're still alone. Each other's company could never make up for the dark, cold emptiness inside.
Loneliness can be so strong; but to take the full effect of it, to feel complete loneliness, I have to stop and think. I have to comprehend an empty bed. The ultimate loneliness is to realize that someone you love and that is so important to you, is gone. It's not that you just lost the relationship of someone. It's that you'll never be able to even see them, feel them, or know they're there, ever again.