I'm willing to break myself

[thru_being_c00l]

my days have been reduced to smoking pot and going to class coming home going to work and reading, listening to music and waiting for something to happen in an effort to keep the feeling of summer in me. waiting for something to happen...anything...somthing that is supposed to..that i want to. and i drink and smoke to stay warm, even thought its 80 out...and to keep from feeling pain that i know is there. being at home is like an extension of summer, only with classes here and there..at least thats how i want it to be. i miss summer and how it was when we had nothing ahead of us to look forward to except hanging out again the next day. the 2 week period when the Heinemann's parents were out of town was so awesome. now fucking school is back and everyones gona and im still here in Peoria which im usually only at for breaks and its weird now cuz im here all the time. i cant wait for fall, though

19 and invinbsible