Neurosis
You are faced with an opportunity that you are probably unqualified for.
Do you:
A.) Apply anyway, because you are awesome, because you believe in yourself, because Obama would do it (maybe)?
Or
B.) Focus on other, more attainable goals in your limited time?
C.) Become mired in an internal debate about limits in general, wondering if all limits are only set by ourselves and our abilities to persuade others that we are qualified in unconventional ways, but qualified nonetheless?
I'm sort of stuck on C. These are the sorts of quandaries that always cause me to turn in my applications at 12:01 for 12:00 deadlines, and then tell myself that its OK that I didn't get in because I just missed the deadline-- that the failure is not truly a reflection of my talents. I purposely hamstring myself so that I'll never have to know that I am perhaps not as great in life as I think I am in my head.
The deadline for the White House Fellows program is in February. I want to get my application in before January 1. Then there's graduate school, and the GRE, and... I can do this. Deep breath. I can do this.
Sorry for the shamelessly self-absorbed tone of this blog.
But it is a blog, after all. Apology retracted.
Do you:
A.) Apply anyway, because you are awesome, because you believe in yourself, because Obama would do it (maybe)?
Or
B.) Focus on other, more attainable goals in your limited time?
C.) Become mired in an internal debate about limits in general, wondering if all limits are only set by ourselves and our abilities to persuade others that we are qualified in unconventional ways, but qualified nonetheless?
I'm sort of stuck on C. These are the sorts of quandaries that always cause me to turn in my applications at 12:01 for 12:00 deadlines, and then tell myself that its OK that I didn't get in because I just missed the deadline-- that the failure is not truly a reflection of my talents. I purposely hamstring myself so that I'll never have to know that I am perhaps not as great in life as I think I am in my head.
The deadline for the White House Fellows program is in February. I want to get my application in before January 1. Then there's graduate school, and the GRE, and... I can do this. Deep breath. I can do this.
Sorry for the shamelessly self-absorbed tone of this blog.
But it is a blog, after all. Apology retracted.