all good things fall
So I came home because I couldn't take life anymore..
and all Lesley could say to me was, "Amanda, I have become a fat lard.."
The Killers came on the radio, and I heard their voices say
"If you can't hold on, hold on.."
life is like that.
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I found this list of things that made me happy once.. and I thought I would share them, since most of them deal with memories with you guys..
This is from last June.
~ Dancing in the moonlight with the coolest boy in the world at Kayla's graduation party.
~ Seton freaking out when I didn't drink a Dr. Pepper because there was 40 grams of sugar in it. "You're skinny anyways.."
~ Playing hide and seek in the park with Chelsea, Jordan, and Justin - when we hid behind our hands.. and clapping to get Jordan's attention
~ Riding my scooter from Subway to Taco Bell and back again.. thinking I was the stuff..
~ Working at the Civic Center and getting paychecks for $10 dollars.. thinking that now I was the coolest thing ever.. (wow, $10 dollars, psh)
~ Teaching Seton how to dance one day before Show Choir tryouts, and making him scream "STEP, HOP, then TURN!"
~ Driving Steve-O's truck from the church to his house, and then to Subway. I ran over the curb and parked in the middle of the road.. still don't know how I managed that one.
~ Dancing in the parking lot to the Napoleon Dynamite song.. and Emily's parents watching and wondering what I was smoking
~ Chelsea and I writing a poem on Alaina's fridge with magnets.. "come not here while I go there.. "
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That list makes me sad. I was a different person then.
All the Amanda's from time are tied together like those paper cut-out dolls.. folding and unfolding..