somethings gotta give
i could quite possibly be making some of the worst decisions of this summer. (and ironically they involve nothing illegal as many other things do) they do however involve a certain someone and that is the reason why they could be my worst decisions of the summer.
to put it simply, i've got a lot going on right now and it would be hard for me to give it my all. and when i get involved in relationships of any sort, i am either all in or all out, i don't half ass those types of things. like i told beau and jordan the other night after they thanked me profusely for making sure their drunk asses got home safely, i am their for my friends any where, any time; if you need help and i am capable of it, no matter what it is, i am there.
i feel that when someone gives me a part of themselves, they deserve to have me give them that in return. once again to put it simply, the amount of respect you treat me with is the amount of my respect you will receive in return. and that's thing, this person deserves my utmost respect, and i fear i can't give him (fine i'll just say it, it's a him) all of me right now. and although some might be able to understand why i can't give my whole self right now, i'm not sure he will be able to. time is the only thing that will be able to tell the outcome.
so that is why i think i could possibly be making some of the worst decisions of this summer. the only thing is, they could end up being some of the best decisions of my life.
i think for the weekend however i will put all of this confusion aside and prove to jordan that i am never a downer and head to the lebanon picnic with him, and possibly beau. it's sure to be a good time.
to put it simply, i've got a lot going on right now and it would be hard for me to give it my all. and when i get involved in relationships of any sort, i am either all in or all out, i don't half ass those types of things. like i told beau and jordan the other night after they thanked me profusely for making sure their drunk asses got home safely, i am their for my friends any where, any time; if you need help and i am capable of it, no matter what it is, i am there.
i feel that when someone gives me a part of themselves, they deserve to have me give them that in return. once again to put it simply, the amount of respect you treat me with is the amount of my respect you will receive in return. and that's thing, this person deserves my utmost respect, and i fear i can't give him (fine i'll just say it, it's a him) all of me right now. and although some might be able to understand why i can't give my whole self right now, i'm not sure he will be able to. time is the only thing that will be able to tell the outcome.
so that is why i think i could possibly be making some of the worst decisions of this summer. the only thing is, they could end up being some of the best decisions of my life.
i think for the weekend however i will put all of this confusion aside and prove to jordan that i am never a downer and head to the lebanon picnic with him, and possibly beau. it's sure to be a good time.