And he won't stop snoring
Wow online, haven't seen that in a couple weeks, you'll have that though.
I've regressed from the finishing the band to go back to good old open micing it's all I want to do right now and it makes me happy, there's not as much pressure to move along with everything and frankly I don't really care about trying to make becoming a musician my life anymore. It's been a while since I actually took time to write in this thing and not ramble some crap that was floating around in the front of my head, that's what happens when you don't have much free time anymore. SO I entered into the Barnes and Noble Cafe world and soon I will become a manager, yes that's right folks I'll be making salary and telling people what to do, it's strange. Oh well, I never thought that would happen but the main cafe boss seems to think that I'll do a good job so I'll do my best. I think these last few months have been good to me, more than I could ever hope for really. It's strange but I think that I've grown up just recently and it's one of the most comfortable things in the world. I hardly mean that in a negative light, this whole "grown up" thing. It just reminds me of one of those Toys R Us commercials from back in the day but fuck that, this is so much better. I don't know if I'm going to keep this journal much longer to be truthful I will probably make a new one and the people that really want to add me and read the crap I think can read it, and those that don't want to anymore won't have to scroll down their screens so much when they look at their friends. I seem to have lost Erika as a friend as of recently and allthough it still bothers me and makes me wonder what happened there, I guess this is how it was supposed to work out, once again the true friends come true and that's all I really want. I'm not really sure how to describe what's happening to me right now and I never thought I'd abandon the "Fairytales Telltales" side of my life but it's over. I don't know how else to say this but I am truly happy, actually happy and it's a great feeling. I know this is just one of those things to everyone else and no one really cares but I officially no loonger own my heart, WHOA WHO INVITED THE EMO KID IN THE HOUSE?! I know, I know, corney whatever I never actually thought that I would care for someone over myself like I do I never imagined something so amazing ever happening to me, I'm still waiting to be woken up and I'm hoping that, that will never ever happen. It's harder to see him everyday now with work and school but if I can make it for two hours inbetween the two I drive the half hour just so I can see him and feel him hold me back. Ha yes I am that lame and no I'm not trying to be a jerk and rub it in all of your faces but afterall, it is my journal haha but no really it's just things I've been thinking about that I need to write. It's like I've found that feeling that those cheezy movies and songs are always talking about and I can't believe it actually exists. Seriously this has been the best almost 6 months of my life and when we have our house soon everything I need or ever want (besides permanent fall weather) will be around me and I hope that I can keep it all together and not screw anything up for once. I love you Stephen.
I also finally decided on my major, that's right folks welcome to your black and white photography specialist. Oh well I'll be a manager at a stupid huge company I can do things like this.
I've regressed from the finishing the band to go back to good old open micing it's all I want to do right now and it makes me happy, there's not as much pressure to move along with everything and frankly I don't really care about trying to make becoming a musician my life anymore. It's been a while since I actually took time to write in this thing and not ramble some crap that was floating around in the front of my head, that's what happens when you don't have much free time anymore. SO I entered into the Barnes and Noble Cafe world and soon I will become a manager, yes that's right folks I'll be making salary and telling people what to do, it's strange. Oh well, I never thought that would happen but the main cafe boss seems to think that I'll do a good job so I'll do my best. I think these last few months have been good to me, more than I could ever hope for really. It's strange but I think that I've grown up just recently and it's one of the most comfortable things in the world. I hardly mean that in a negative light, this whole "grown up" thing. It just reminds me of one of those Toys R Us commercials from back in the day but fuck that, this is so much better. I don't know if I'm going to keep this journal much longer to be truthful I will probably make a new one and the people that really want to add me and read the crap I think can read it, and those that don't want to anymore won't have to scroll down their screens so much when they look at their friends. I seem to have lost Erika as a friend as of recently and allthough it still bothers me and makes me wonder what happened there, I guess this is how it was supposed to work out, once again the true friends come true and that's all I really want. I'm not really sure how to describe what's happening to me right now and I never thought I'd abandon the "Fairytales Telltales" side of my life but it's over. I don't know how else to say this but I am truly happy, actually happy and it's a great feeling. I know this is just one of those things to everyone else and no one really cares but I officially no loonger own my heart, WHOA WHO INVITED THE EMO KID IN THE HOUSE?! I know, I know, corney whatever I never actually thought that I would care for someone over myself like I do I never imagined something so amazing ever happening to me, I'm still waiting to be woken up and I'm hoping that, that will never ever happen. It's harder to see him everyday now with work and school but if I can make it for two hours inbetween the two I drive the half hour just so I can see him and feel him hold me back. Ha yes I am that lame and no I'm not trying to be a jerk and rub it in all of your faces but afterall, it is my journal haha but no really it's just things I've been thinking about that I need to write. It's like I've found that feeling that those cheezy movies and songs are always talking about and I can't believe it actually exists. Seriously this has been the best almost 6 months of my life and when we have our house soon everything I need or ever want (besides permanent fall weather) will be around me and I hope that I can keep it all together and not screw anything up for once. I love you Stephen.
I also finally decided on my major, that's right folks welcome to your black and white photography specialist. Oh well I'll be a manager at a stupid huge company I can do things like this.