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hey everyone....... life has been pretty gay.... work-burnt out, schedule-changed-out, big decision looming anxiety but thats nowhere near as bad as the horrible pang in the chest of the lament of longing... starting to have roomate problems ( i hate living w/ someone who can't speak their mind, literally for fear of conflict avoid any issue then when it gets forced out looks at you like thats your problem....) i hate feeling uncomfortable in my own home. i miss my 'rents... can you believe that? wow! maturing can pull a number.... i need to enroll in school....need to be doing something..... my friends ended up not coming out this past weekend ( which is cool cuz i start vacation next weekend so.. i'll see alot of em,) but it made me realize how lonely and bored i'm starting to get.... i've always had friends and stuff constantly to do.. and this past year of isolation's been good but... not anymore. this is prolly all just emotion brought on by sarah magically appearing but still.... i'm ancy, restless, sleeping way to much, i wanna go to the future where all of this is figured out and just start living there.... but i guess we all want that.... like a super-fast-forward button.. well thats my depressing entry gotta throw one in every now and again..... but truly i am happy... i have many things to be happy for and excited.... writing's gotten better.....sarah....goin to poughkeepsie..... nyc on st. patty's day.... i guess i'm just impatient for the future to come.... may be i should just focus on the present enjoy it and get grounded so i can work out my plans....... for now i catch the snowflakes on my tounge quenching my thirst for the snowflake in my heart.