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So I was --- this close to breaking up with my boyfriend today. Not a very happy day but it got better. I miss having fun all the time. I feel like Im just skating through everything. I dint have any really close friend anymore. they all let. and im really closed to trusting or letting people in. i still dont totally trust my boyfriend and its been about 6 or so months. Is there something wrong with me that i cant let anyone in? I wish it was easy for me like it is for everyone else. I've been told to just relax and let go. I know i probably should but i cant. fuck i wish it wasnt this hard. maybe i just make it this was. whatever i'll just have to force myself to do this. i just hate putting on a show for people sometimes. i think i just need a hug. :( peace.