insomnia
Hi Everyone.
Today was, bleh. It was alright, but not anything special. I went to work with mum today, at YaPoAh and I had to serve food and wait on people. It kinda sucked. My mom kept having to tell me to do stuff because I won't make the initiative to go ask people what they want, I'm too shy and I blush. Plus waiting on old, weird, smelly people just sucks. Waiting on anyone sucks. It's not my deal, I'll never work a resturant unless I buss, I don't mind that shit.
That was the only semi-productive thing I did today. I am glad I did go thought instead of sitting around at home like I did after I got home. When I sit around, I have too much time to think, then worry, then panick, then get mad for thinking too much and, bleh, it just gets messy and everything gets bad from there. So, I did that today. Then after 6 hours of that I took a bath and cleaned up the house and painted. In times of panic I need to do more productive things, if only there were more productive things to do around here.
I watched some p. diddy shit, and Osbournes which is always a joy, they're funny kiddies. Now I am here, left to think more negative thoughts. If I could sleep, I would. But I can't. Can I ever?
I am so, so happy about Taproot. I really want to get a photo pass though. I hope I can somehow. I need to find someone to get in touch with to ask for something like that. Kathy maybe? I've only talked to her a few times though and I don't think I'd ask her because that is rude. I'd just rather ask the record company myself, if only I knew who to get in contact with... a name, a email address, anything would be good.
Good news:
PoisonBlanket: lol.. i talked to shadow the other day and he sed yo can be their personal photographer when they goon tour again
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(My sister) talked to Shadow (bassist of Sinnistar...) so, I hope that all works out. I don't think they'll be going on tour till after the New Year. And I might not be able to go on account that I am not 18, but I think if my mum signs a waiver, it will be alright. Or maybe if I just lied, like that WONDERFUL Patrick Fugit from Almost Famous did. Yes, that could indeed work.
In any case, that would be an awesome opportunity for me to do photography for a band, and go on tour. How much more awesome of a thing could I ask for? I'm not sure. But I would be super stoked if that worked out. I don't think I could thank anyone enough for giving me such a great chance to get out. Ah. Gives me something to day dream about.
More good news! Blood Brothers are coming back January 19th, with The Used, wahoot! I am excited. I LOVE the Blood Brothers. AND it's a saturday, so I'll be able to go, for sure!
Weeee.
Even more good news... my mum said I might be able to get my tatoo for xmas, even though I want a guitar, ah, fuck it, if she's paying for the tat, I'll pay for the guitar.
Woot!
I think it's time for me to find some heavy duty sleeping pills.
Goodnight lovely children.
I love you all.
<333
Today was, bleh. It was alright, but not anything special. I went to work with mum today, at YaPoAh and I had to serve food and wait on people. It kinda sucked. My mom kept having to tell me to do stuff because I won't make the initiative to go ask people what they want, I'm too shy and I blush. Plus waiting on old, weird, smelly people just sucks. Waiting on anyone sucks. It's not my deal, I'll never work a resturant unless I buss, I don't mind that shit.
That was the only semi-productive thing I did today. I am glad I did go thought instead of sitting around at home like I did after I got home. When I sit around, I have too much time to think, then worry, then panick, then get mad for thinking too much and, bleh, it just gets messy and everything gets bad from there. So, I did that today. Then after 6 hours of that I took a bath and cleaned up the house and painted. In times of panic I need to do more productive things, if only there were more productive things to do around here.
I watched some p. diddy shit, and Osbournes which is always a joy, they're funny kiddies. Now I am here, left to think more negative thoughts. If I could sleep, I would. But I can't. Can I ever?
I am so, so happy about Taproot. I really want to get a photo pass though. I hope I can somehow. I need to find someone to get in touch with to ask for something like that. Kathy maybe? I've only talked to her a few times though and I don't think I'd ask her because that is rude. I'd just rather ask the record company myself, if only I knew who to get in contact with... a name, a email address, anything would be good.
Good news:
PoisonBlanket: lol.. i talked to shadow the other day and he sed yo can be their personal photographer when they goon tour again
---
(My sister) talked to Shadow (bassist of Sinnistar...) so, I hope that all works out. I don't think they'll be going on tour till after the New Year. And I might not be able to go on account that I am not 18, but I think if my mum signs a waiver, it will be alright. Or maybe if I just lied, like that WONDERFUL Patrick Fugit from Almost Famous did. Yes, that could indeed work.
In any case, that would be an awesome opportunity for me to do photography for a band, and go on tour. How much more awesome of a thing could I ask for? I'm not sure. But I would be super stoked if that worked out. I don't think I could thank anyone enough for giving me such a great chance to get out. Ah. Gives me something to day dream about.
More good news! Blood Brothers are coming back January 19th, with The Used, wahoot! I am excited. I LOVE the Blood Brothers. AND it's a saturday, so I'll be able to go, for sure!
Weeee.
Even more good news... my mum said I might be able to get my tatoo for xmas, even though I want a guitar, ah, fuck it, if she's paying for the tat, I'll pay for the guitar.
Woot!
I think it's time for me to find some heavy duty sleeping pills.
Goodnight lovely children.
I love you all.
<333