standing so close knowing it kills me to breath you in
i adore this song...
from autumn to ashes... #8
I felt you slip away
Far away from me
Further from me
You seem to drift far away
I caught myself wishing you back, as i fight to catch you
Anger wells inside me
I see me, frowning, in your eyes
[i see the fear in you where noone should ever be,
i find myself striving to catch you from..
this will hurt me less and less everytime until i feel nothing]
I see my reflection and the pain scripted across my face, set in stone
Anger wells inside of me
I see me, frowning in your eyes
Far away from me
Further from me
You seem to drift far away
I caught myself wishing you back as i strive for you
[she said “its not that i dont love you anymore,
but it would be much more accurate to say that i never loved you in the first place]
I put the fear in you where noone should ever be
Nothing to me
Everything to you
Nothing to me
Everything to you.
right now, I am feeling like shit. I hate feeling like this.
overwhelmed by everything and everyone and, just shit.
I can't do my fucking math homework, i dont understand it.
I cant write 2 fucking papers, I dont have any info.
My mom said she would help me, no, she wont. She's on the phone with her a many a boyfriends thinking she'll tell them off, but what really happens is she'll mention she's pissed, they say sorry, and he comes over and fucks her the rest of the night. Disgusting.
I am pissed.
I am sad.
I miss my friends.
I miss Rachel and Christy. I miss Julie and Emily. I miss everyone. I think about everyone I am not with every second of the day. At school, at home, when I am walking aimlessly around town. I want to cry all the time.
I just stuck my finger down my throat because my stomach hurt and now I feel gross. I am gross.
It makes me want to cut my arm and watch it bleed again.
How sick.
Sorry, I'm thinking out loud.
I'll go do math again:-/
from autumn to ashes... #8
I felt you slip away
Far away from me
Further from me
You seem to drift far away
I caught myself wishing you back, as i fight to catch you
Anger wells inside me
I see me, frowning, in your eyes
[i see the fear in you where noone should ever be,
i find myself striving to catch you from..
this will hurt me less and less everytime until i feel nothing]
I see my reflection and the pain scripted across my face, set in stone
Anger wells inside of me
I see me, frowning in your eyes
Far away from me
Further from me
You seem to drift far away
I caught myself wishing you back as i strive for you
[she said “its not that i dont love you anymore,
but it would be much more accurate to say that i never loved you in the first place]
I put the fear in you where noone should ever be
Nothing to me
Everything to you
Nothing to me
Everything to you.
right now, I am feeling like shit. I hate feeling like this.
overwhelmed by everything and everyone and, just shit.
I can't do my fucking math homework, i dont understand it.
I cant write 2 fucking papers, I dont have any info.
My mom said she would help me, no, she wont. She's on the phone with her a many a boyfriends thinking she'll tell them off, but what really happens is she'll mention she's pissed, they say sorry, and he comes over and fucks her the rest of the night. Disgusting.
I am pissed.
I am sad.
I miss my friends.
I miss Rachel and Christy. I miss Julie and Emily. I miss everyone. I think about everyone I am not with every second of the day. At school, at home, when I am walking aimlessly around town. I want to cry all the time.
I just stuck my finger down my throat because my stomach hurt and now I feel gross. I am gross.
It makes me want to cut my arm and watch it bleed again.
How sick.
Sorry, I'm thinking out loud.
I'll go do math again:-/