truley happy....does it look good on me?
So i havnt updated in a little while...like you all care. I've been sutbborn lately and it sucks to learn it this way but when you hit the bottom and realize that your the blame.....for most of the problems. It's something ive been dealing with pretty much all my life...those of you who are really close to me know exactly what im talking about, and i think 21 nights without this holding me down will end up changing who i am for the better...Sometimes i think i get so caught up in emotions that i end up focusing solely on my emotions and no-one elses and thats never a good thing. I'm sorry if i have ever hurt anyone through this flaw but im changing it so stick around and see the real chris hawkins.....or leave thats cool too.
on a less serious note, i love this girl. She makes waking up easier...and she hates when i do this...on LJ.....but i don't care. She has opened my eyes to swee alot of things that hold me down from being all that i should be and God has called me to be so i thank you for that. you know who you are I LOVE YOU!!!
"I'm sinking like a stone in the sea. I'm burning like a bridge for your body."