My Life...

[threeweakstreak]

I dont understand anything that goes on in my life. Plain and simple. For example, i already wrote this whole thing once, then internet explorer for an error and closed, bad luck? anyway This week was spirit week and all that bs so i didnt really have time nor desire to update. Today was the homecoming game, and we fucking won, it was awesome. Tonight there are 2 killer parties... but where am i? Home. Im sitting here because i seriously have no life. Shit didnt work out or something... i dont really know. Basically what it comes down to is that i have no friends. I have this feeling inside of like such disgust of myself, i dont really know what it is.. being depressed? Well it sucks. Everyone reads this shit and are like "oh yeah, im here for you" and shit... fuck you. I dont need a fucking support group, i could use a few fucking friends though. Ya sure i might be friendly with alot of ppl, but do we ever chill on the weekends? No one wants to pick up a damn phone and see what im doing or let me tag along or some shit. I guess people dont know how to use phones these days... oh well. I really dont wanna write all this shit here, but i gotta get it out someone and im pretty sure no one wants to hear it... no one. It's 9:30 right now... every single person on my buddylist is away, out getting wasted. Staying in like this like a fucking loser isnt a choice i make it just happens. Tonight my parents made fun of me and yelled at me for not going to the party, they called me a loser. I thought when u have fucking problems family is supposed to be something you turn to for help, instead they make fun of me. And yes i do have problems. Problem number one is that no one understands me. I dont even understand myself. I'm such a fake person, and i dont know why? Like whats the point of being fake if u still dont have friends, LOL. OK im really fucking rambling on now cause im bored and everyone else is out, w/e ill go do nothing

Just look at me. Look at me now.
I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake, I'm a fake